today is a bad bad day. super suay, super bad.

i thought i lost my hp. but turn out, i left it in my bro's car. and to make things worst, the whole office helped me to look for it and i put it on silent mode. =(

second, shipment got delayed. i promised that it will be on time, but it is not. though it is not my fault for the vessel to delay, but i feel bad. =( luckily, boss didn't scold me. but his trip to manila may be delayed, due to this shipment.

third, one of my colleague in bintan resigned. it may not affect the company so much. my boss asked me what should i do.. i said, i don't know. not good in PR. well, he told me talked to her, and talked to my factory manager, is she needed. if not, let her go.

i asked my colleagues, one say yes, one say no. i asked them whether they can share the work load, one say yes, one say no. so what?? can or not? if i know malay language, probably i can do it on my own. which i do not mind.

fourth, some restructure in the company. if i can handle, i would love to handle my tasks. busy it might be, but then, i am happy working. and the best is, time flies. in a blink. i proposed that my work is still manageable. i hope they wont touch it.

ok, enough of complaints.

on a happy note, my boss asked me to check the price of the BB that i wanted with my plan. =)) but he said no promises.. well, better than nothing.

i am going to BKK, but i have not pack any single thing. great.

went for the class... destressed, feels good, feels great.



i am surprised.. that he still smsed me.. after.. 3 months? i don't know what to reply...

i remember everything.
i remember that day.
i remember how i pleaded you.
i remember how i begged you.
i remember how you let go of me.
i remember how tough i am trying to be.
i remember that day that i nearly scared my mum to death.
i remember how my life changes after that...

roller-coastering. =(


♥9:52 PM..Love
i am super upset with my permed hair... i will NEVER do it again.. waiting for another half a year and i will rebond it.

so upset that i cried. =(( i HATE it.

And it is so much more expensive! Why am I so impulsive! :((

i feel that i am super ugly and old now. i just feel like locking myself at home, where nobody sees me. =(((




♥11:37 PM..Love
:(

He asked me again... How...

Should I?
♥11:54 PM..Love
First time attending an Indian style wedding. It is more like family day rather than dinner banquet. I am super glad that I am sitting at the VIP seat.. If not we need to queue for the food as it is buffet style! Imagine it is like hundreds of people queuing for food! So omg. But anyway, the food tasted okay. :) and at 1030, the dinner has not ended, they have speeches and they are going to dance!! Maybe running around the trees.. :X but I ran off when they started to have fever. Hah..

Someone asked me to join his company.. Hmm.. Accounts cum marketing. Another new line. But at the moment.. Nt yet. Nt even a year at the curreent company. This guy came and passed me something and offered to fetch me to the place I wanna go as he came late. So basically I felt that I have gone through an interview in the car! So, so many questions.

But of course, when he offered to fetch me I did tell my boss in any case anything happen. So after that he texted me to check whether I am safe and sound. Hmm, recently my boss has been abit too nice. So not used to it as he usually will be sarcastic or bully me. Hah.

Him : so how's Ivan? ;)

Me : wow, not bad, he lives very near me. Anyway, he asked me to join his company.. -.- he is doing retail on hp.

Him: what!!!??? He asked you to join him!!!??? I'm cancelling the contracts! Going to kill him! You're mine ok! (work sense) haha..

At a moment.. I thought that was sweet.. At least he appreciate my work. :)

Walk past the pet shop. Saw the hamsters.. It reminds me of the hamster that i got a year back.. And when I start to think.. Everything come back to me again...sigh.

Tmr gonna work.. Off to bed...
♥1:00 AM..Love



WTH! italy is out of the run. HAHAHA. i don't know what happened. those i supported lost, unpredictable won. and i shall not bet. this is the biggest hint to me already. HAH.
♥12:47 PM..Love
seriously... i don't like this status quo thingy. =(

what is it that you want?

what is it that he wants?

what if you were given a chance?

what if i were given a chance?

anyway, i am not thinking. because it will never happens. kept everything and packed up. don't wish to be distracted...

if it's meant to be, it is. no pulling effect.

found a book called... PR for dummies.

interesting.. i am a dumb dumb.


it is annoying to be stuck here updating the OS 4. it has been like for hours and hours... so tired till i dozed off in front of the comp.

was watching the match for awhile. go england.


moody.
♥11:14 PM..Love
Finally.. I did something that I always wanted to do. :)

I love the class. It keeps me occupied.

I had a great day at work too.

Now I am prepared for the muscles aches. Hah.
♥10:06 PM..Love
hmm. don't feel like going home. still in office. but bored. went to swensens for lunch just now. didn't know grilled salmon can taste so good. now i know why zhen is always having the salmon. hah.



b-e-a-utiful.......
♥5:55 PM..Love
you guys make my Monday less moody. =)
♥11:35 AM..Love
today is daddy's day. hah. went to look for my dad for breakfast, then went to ah ma house. having fun with the car. then met my friends at bugis. enjoyed the lame jokes and chit chats. long time didnt see clive and ally.

i missed them already. =(


♥11:33 PM..Love
Can't sleep. Tossing ard in my bed. Sigh.

ITE. He's gone...
♥3:30 AM..Love
spent more than an hour in Page One. Becoming a book worm.

was looking for a bday gift for my boss.. but i couldn't find one. afraid that people will gossip that i am boot licking. so, decided not to.

Saw alot of sales but I don't feel like buying anything. I bought Carl's junior for dinner, second time having that. It's gooood but as usual, can't finish it all.

My parking still very bad. It is never in the lot. :(


'It takes as much energy to wish as it does to plan. Start making plans for somethigg you've only dreamt about so far.'

I liked the above quote. So y wish? But if I don't, I won't be human. Human loves to wish. Alright, talking nonsense now.


World cup today cannot based on past performance. Unpredictable.
♥10:43 PM..Love
What makes you people attracted to me? I am neither sweet talker nor pretty.

It's getting on my nerves. When I say no, don't probe. I have the rights who I should meet.


Friend : hey, can I see u home?

Me : huh? Y would u want to see me home?

Friend : I just wanted to. Heh.

I reckoned that I stunned him with this question as he took a while to reply me. Weird. I seriously don't like it.
♥10:00 PM..Love
I re-watched twilight. For... I don't know how many times. And it's still.. 'awwww, so sweeet'.


My company just has an office in Bangkok. Renovating. And maybe I will need to station there. Well, I don't mind, since I prefer speaking English than mandarin. And I don't mind since it is more like sg. Much better than china. An the best thing is, I can shop, non-stop without worrying a drastic drop in my bank. :)

Not having a good appetite after exam. Hah. Withdrawal symptoms.

I am good at remembering dates, as usual.
♥9:24 PM..Love
Finally it's done and over with.. Don't care whether pass or fail.. Anyway, I think I did worse than the previous time, so, since I didn't pass the last time, I confirm will fail this time. Hah. Saw alot of my poly mates at the venue.. Caiyu, yuhua, meihui and meifang.. We were saying how many times we have taken for some papers.. Hah. We are all stuck there. Felt kind of comfort that I am not the only one with this case. Hah, I am good at self-deceiving...

Had a good dinner with boss and colleagues after the paper just now. Then I headed off to get some stuff to make myself feel better. Hah. I am good at treating myself better now.. Not to let my mum worried about me..

Going to work tmr and I had a 'sneak preview' just now at my emails.. Around 40 emails.. Crap.

Alot of movies are coming out now.. How!!! Sigh..

I wish I have a short break now.. Msia? Bali? Just stay at home and rot better.. Hah.

Anyway, going off to Bangkok soon! But I missed my bro's 21st bday.. Bad sis. :(


I will get used of myself.
♥12:43 AM..Love
Having running nose the whole day. Sigh.


Can someone define happiness?


I wish I never have the expectations, sorry.
♥10:41 PM..Love
home alone.

so, so bored.
♥6:50 PM..Love
and so, i rejected him.

boss: hey, u had lunch with your friend? you don't look like you know him well...

me: yes, i don't know him well. hah.

boss: oh, so he is interested in u.

me: u said, i didnt say anything.

boss: give him a chance lahhhh...

me: ...

yawns. i feel so good after rejecting. so that i dont need o keep on finding excuses not to meet him.

it has been ages since i went to the lib. so, i visted. =)


sian.. weekend is here again.. not happy.

me:




♥8:33 AM..Love
I had a nightmare. Woke up crying and crying.. Heartbroken.
♥6:15 AM..Love