watched...



omg. it is a touching and practical love story. and i believe that the part when they got separated and back together again due to army really exist in real life.

and he is cute. Channing Tatum. super cute.

just realised he is in G.I. Joe too.





awww...



and i am dreaming.
♥10:31 PM..Love
boss: i already asked the boys not to tell you more tales about china. scare you run away.

me: ...


YAY to bangkok! tickets booked and finally going.

NO to china! but good in the sense i can go and experience it.



what am i going to do without you...
♥11:19 PM..Love
totally pissed me off. why is everything standing in my way?? i think this is a bad omen.

if you really miss me, call me, don't just wait for things to happen. things won't happen just by using eyes power. though i won't pick up, but at least i know. not by u saying 'i missing u'. it won't work on me. u can simply just mass send it to every girls/guys in your contact list. i can't be bothered.

been pissed off for the entire day. that's it. off to bed.
♥11:22 PM..Love
pls STOP bothering me!!! i will NEVER pick up the calls that you made.

what goes around, comes around. don't blame me that your gf left you. if you want an affair with me while you are attached, i believe you will do that if you are with me. i WILL NEVER let you intrude my life ANYMORE!
♥2:12 PM..Love
working... (surfing net actually)

15mins.. can't wait to sprint off. boss is out dating already. lol.

troublesome to arrange annual dinner. argh. this is what happen when there are soooo many people to confirm.

going out shopping. yay!
♥12:14 PM..Love
today was a tiring day.. (OMG, why did i start off with such a classic sentence??)

just came back from the bbq and it turns out to be quite ok. but too bad for the oolong cha. argh. i hate it. super long didn't take that and i thought i will have overcome it but nah, it is still not happening. shall not try it again. but anyway, went for the auditors' meeting for the whole afternoon. has been preparing for that for days with all the transfer pricing and stuff like that. hate budgeting. boo.

had a talk with my boss. he is super lame and funny. super excited when comes to 'i want to sing karaoke!' and don't be suprised with his song list which goes down to taylor swift, lady gaga, beyonce, fish leong and blah blah blah. i thought he only listens to oldies though.

he was telling me in the car saying that i will be going to china, to do some auditing of the accounts of the china factory. in march. when i dont know, but he said in march. go for a week and when i am having school holiday, i have to go for two weeks. x.x

i am not excited. heard so much tales abt there, toilets, food and traffic. but guess it won't affect me if i told myself that i only drink from mineral water, maybe i can go on a diet since i won't like the food? traffic is being taken care by our company driver, toilets i heard that the factory toilets are quite clean. the most go to the company mansion toilets.

preparing for the trip, got the chinese terminology of the reports terms so that i know how to say bills, balance sheel and stuff like that. how is the weather like i don't know. sigh. y does it have to be my first flight... y not japan.. =P

but anyway, taking SQ so i assume that it will be safe.

haha. this week is a short week. and glad that weekend has arrived. have fun people! =)
♥12:53 AM..Love
there is something about you. ♥
♥11:26 PM..Love
suppose to be yesterday post, but i think i forgot to post it.

i have half day at work today. but i wasn't happy about as i dragged myself to school in the evening. but i have lunch with all my colleagues. :)


whats wrong with me? i keep doing wrong thing. sigh. now people think that i am a weird person. ARGH. what have i done... stupid me.

i need to be myself again.

sleepy. dah.

Labels: life rants

♥11:09 PM..Love


note to myself : stop looking at things that reminds me of him.


it really hurts.
♥11:00 PM..Love
i am enjoying cny holidays.



so boring! the weather is too hot and making me dizzy. the financial reports are also making me dizzy.

i wanna get a camera. soon. before i head out to china and bkk.


♥5:17 PM..Love
watched 'valentine's day' yesterday. i watched it alone. hah. had half day yesterday so i decided to head down to downtown to catch a show. lots of students. i wish i am stil in sec sch. when after sch, have fun and gather with friends. it's been a long time that i went around walking in the malls at 3-4pm. i love the sun. =)

the show is sweet. super sweet. lots of casts and i love the show.


i became tight up when you asked: so i will be out the whole day on chu yi?

i didn't reply.

not that i don't wanna tell u, i am just worried u will appear right in front of me, and i won't know what to do.


the most hardworking day of the year is today. where i help my mum to do the cooking and clearing of the house. argh. i am a lazy bum. haha.

what should i do with cny? i wish i am working.. but i heard there is half day on wed. argh. so sad. then it will be neither here nor there as i got class on wed night. boo.


he smsed me before he went to msia..


it is the first year that we wont be contacting each other during cny. if that is what u want: no strings attached.


do what you want to make yourself happy. that's what i am thinking and also, what you ask me to do.

'turns someone you like into someone you love.'

how to?

i remembered in the show, there is a scene and i think it's along this line:

guy: do you ever thought of marrying me?

girl: i considered. but when you marry a girl, you want her to WANT to marry you, and not just considering it.



i have sleepless nights, bad dreams. and sometimes, same dream appears. but i already don't tell. no point telling. people get sick of it and it is so me. i have to learn to overcome it. it is so not worth it. i am feeling the hurt, but you are not. i am feeling the sadness, but you are not. what for?

period.
♥3:08 PM..Love
Y-E-S!


Half day granted!!! =D
♥1:21 PM..Love
*boredom strikes me*



!!!!


i am really bored lah... working but then... not working. sigh. basically doing typing, in blogger, facebook, skype and msn.

opps.


can i have some entertainment? just let me go home.....
♥11:32 AM..Love
Waiting in toa payoh for the girls. Sooo long! But then it's ok with me a long as there is wifi.

Today... Big boss talked to me... My nightmare is here... I am going china! ( with a '!' doesn't mean that I am excited!) sigh...

After new year but maybe I can drag until June.. Then I treat it as holiday. Hah. I going to brush up my mandarin so that I am able to communicate with them! Sigh...

And my irritatig boss wish that I can go now.... Argh.

Should I be happy or sad? Though I know it's not station there.. A few months once.. I can see this day coming.. But it's abit too fast.

Itouch is gd. It helps me to type in proper English. Haha.

--------

Back home. thanks to zhen's bro drove us back. tired. age is catching up. sigh.

the crabs are tasty. but then... really no image when eat crabs in public. haha.


sigh... i thought of china... i headache. should? should not? but the prob now is not should or should not anyway. just creating more troubles thinking about it. =(


random-ness...

him: so what did mr lim told u?

me: that thing lor...

him: what thing?

me: china thing lor...

him: so what did you tell him?

me: okay lor...

him: wait till you go china.. i make sure i go also so that i can bully u.. hahaah...

me: hahaha.. u say one ah.. i going to learn from my friends who are auditors in china abt the chinese terms of those reports then i make sure i use it on you and make u blur.

him: please, you report to mr lim, not me. my job is to disturb u.

me: ...


boss these days not in the right mind. must be the tricks of cny. hoping after cny will still be the same.

off to bed! dah.
♥7:26 PM..Love


i ♥ the new visa debit card! it's pretty! and it's an ezlink! and other than this, i get an ATM card! polka dots! ;)

citibank still not coming... booo. actually i don't like the bank. expanded too fast and heard lots of bad remarks. anywayyyy... it's always good to have different cards in different banks so that i can go holiday in peace. wahaha.

went class today and suprised to see jz. hah. we were discussing about the papers. oh well, night mare.

i love being young. however, sometimes, it puts me at a disadvantage at work. when clients see me, they will go 'oh, you are so young'. and i can tell you that in their mind they are thinking, 'how to work with a young lady like this? can she handle it?' it's true that it's hard for a older person to respect someone who is much younger than him. basically they have no confidence in me. hate it.

should tell them, don't judge the book by its cover. haha.

anyway, i am not VERY young. 1 more year to mid age crisis. hah.


HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZHEN! see you later. =)
♥12:17 AM..Love
received a new year card from my ex-boss.. *touched*


list of movies that i wanna watch.. (for my own note.)


1. valentine's day
2. i hate valentine's day
3. Percy Jackson & The Lightning Thief

i hope after cny, i would have conquer them. hah.

suddenly, i don't feel like going to class... =(
♥11:59 AM..Love
gonna clinche a deal on thurs. i hope i will.

so i wishing the bday girl will give me some luck on it. =)


guy A: are you free?

me: no.

guy A: then when?

me: maybe after cny bah..

guy A: then when you free tell me.


can i be always busy?

it's not that i do not wish to open the doors... but i seriously do not have the feeling of 'you are really serious about me'.

it's always appear, disappear and appear again, so during the period when you disappear, i have a strong feelings you are testing water on other girls.

sorry.


guy B: i will give you a treat after cny.

me: when you are free.


can you see the difference?

[10:19:56 PM] Ken Lee: hahhaha
[10:20:33 PM] Ken Lee: just think to yourself that you are better than them...you got a good job, family that loves you
[10:21:07 PM] Ken Lee: so why should he be part of your circle
[10:21:21 PM] Ken Lee: he has to proof himself to you that he deserve you
[10:21:37 PM] Ken Lee: you set your own rules Ms Ng
[10:21:44 PM] Ken Lee: and no one else does that for you

i like this... 'set your own rules ms ng'.



so when i said he is gone.. he reappears.. is he reading??


class tmr. yay! x.x
♥10:26 PM..Love
i am pissed with UOB.

i am pissed with Citibank.


but on another note, i am happy today as my boss treats pizza for lunch!

zhen's bday is coming! can't wait to have crabs! nt can't wait for her bday to come. kekeke.

bought lots of things.. but none is for cny. well done.

i itchy hand and go cut my fringe. now i look like a geek. damn.

trim eyebrow for happy cny. boo.



he is gone...
♥2:13 PM..Love
went to the airshow... SUNBURNT!

so many people.. but then not squeezy, not alot of people blocking my way or need to queue. alot of cute pilots though. hah. not from RSAF but USAF.




yesterday went haji.. not many things to buy, but alot of sales.

(=
♥11:36 PM..Love
i don't know why but i just feel disgusted about the whole incident. by right, in the past, i won't feel anything, at all. but then, today, at a moment, i have mixed feelings, hatred, sad and everything just came so naturally...

why? it is very normal.. i shouldn't be so protective to myself, so conservative... not to say i am open but then... it is really nothing.. just don't like the way i behave, and i felt that i make a hoo-ha about the whole thing.

anyway, it's friday. i have a very nice week. and next week will be better..

me: omg... so many crockroaches!

him: haha.. now then u know. they come out and play when we go back. use to kill about 10 at one go. that's why we cannot eat and leave food on table.

me: i bet yr room got alot! should have catch them jus now and put them into yr room.. but then.. yr room is too near to my table.. better not, to be safe... =P

shhh.


alright! tomorrow i am going to.................




i like!




=)
♥11:41 PM..Love
i love the class today.

no, not because there are cute guys.

there are things i wanna to blog, but then again, i don't feel like blogging it. what's wrong? nothing.

when you have fun people around you, you will eventually have fun. what am i talking about? i don't know.

can't wait for weekend to come fast, no, not because i don't enjoy work though.

i was wondering... what if one day, everything is taken away from me? what should i do... i won't be protected anymore... =(

some random pics...

my work lappie! not a super no. 1 fan of man u, but i love the vibrant colour, red and black is nice. and this wallpaper makes my boss goes mad without fail.



spotted this on someone's fb. can't remember who as i fb-hopped.



i love robert pattinson.





spot me!




he is charming.
♥12:27 AM..Love
sigh. tonight i am gonna spring clean my waredrobe! yesterday i did a 'stock count' and i am shocked to find out the following:-

3 new dresses
5 new tops
2 new jeans
2 new pants
1 new cardigan
2 new shoes (does wear once counted? if yes, then it's 4)
2 new bags (does shopping bag counted? if yes, then it's 4)

i am so dead. when did i buy so many things? i need to clear the old clothes so that i can get to wear the new ones. and if i don't wear it soon, i will out grown the clothes. and my bags are all leather and they will be damaged. OMG!

just for fun. i love the flower picture behind me!


♥11:25 AM..Love

dorothy too! got a new cross body bag from there. i don't know why all my bags die on me the same time. =( throw away 3 bags for this spring cleaning itself! sad.

work is exciting. teleconference meeting for don't know how many times ever since i join. auditors, germans... can't talk well, just crap my way through anyway. =/

suddenly i hate / sick of the food near my work place. i realised that there isn't anything that i am craving for. but i have one in mind, chicken rice... no stalls selling chicken rice over there! sigh.
♥11:05 PM..Love
i am relieved that you don't read / forget about my blog.

yes. that's right, you.
♥1:12 PM..Love