exam finished. poly life is so called gone... but definitely, i will miss u all. ok, starting to think of u all liao. haha... u all noe who u are... pls don't MIA ah... keep in touch. =) i will also miss cutlet uncle. hah.

oh, must praise that someone first. he is sweet. he dropped by and sent my fav tanjong rhu bao to my doorstep. while i was mugging for exams, and didnt see him for donno how long... he came up with surprises. he is just so swEeeet...

anyway...... fri after paper, went out with the gers to watch movie. had fun in arcade. haha. people, pls dont watch final destination 3. it is still as gross as ever. then went for piano and teacher really gave me double hw! sobz... but ya, i should haf the time to do le...

then went back to tm to meet my choir pals for dinner. i am addicted to the crazy taxi in arcade, who gt the pc version? send me leh... then window shop around, then they all dont wanna go home yet.. but i was so tired.. boOoo... but still, i went down to settlers to play interesting board games. and yes, addicted to games forever. reached home around 1.30am and got scolding the next morning. cool huh? hah. mummy's mindset is... gers shouldnt go out so late... -_- i called and told her i be home late already leh... bth... i was wondering... wah liao.. then i go chalet how sia.. overnite can then this one cannot... think she bad mood that day ah... hah.

today sat, went down to hospital. grandpa need an emergency operation to stop the baterias from spreading. he is living on the machines so, don't operate also wont ok, operate maybe still can. and in the end, cut off half of the intestines. and he had a flat stomach now. but still in critical condition. and weird.. people are really weird. everyone appeared there when they usually dont go visit ah gong and ah ma's house. and yes, i mean myself as well, i dont go visit them often. but really, i can see all my aunties crying and everyone's present makes me think that, when someone is really soOo ill, then people will start to miss the person and be concern. I, myself, i dont feel close to my maternal and parental grandparents, i tot i won't be emotional. but i was wrong. hope there will be good news tomorrow morning.

then went down to holland village. cy brought us there. first time there. cool... ang mohs everywhere but i don't care, i go there for shopping. but things are ex. saw nice stuff, foreign countries newspapers, weird cars. everything. i shopped. but worried at the same time, my grandpa. hah. weird rite? jus when i tot i won't care. can't put it down, so, after dinner, went down to tts with bro to visit him. he havent wake up from the operation. so, went home. phone calls in the middle of the nite will scare us to death.

and after everything ended, i hate to ask myself this question again. and people kept asking me and toking about it. i wanna avoid but can't as it is time for me to make the decision.

what should i do after graduating?

seriously, i don't know. too many paths, too many decisions. i hate to think. yes, i am easily stressed.

so... lets analyse wat i have thought of....

work or study?

the answer should be study. i hate working though i earn from it. but, being in the workforce on and off during the 3 years, it is enough. so, as long as i can stay away from work for how long, it shall be it then.

next... study where?

surprisingly, i tot it over when i was in bus 69 to tm after piano that day. did some reflections. and yes! i tot of a practical path. the chances to get into local uni is so slim... slim until i don't know what to say. actually, i don't believe they will take in poly grads straight, i think they will get in only the following year. anyway,can't get in, study private, where? jus somewhere that is recognised. bosses see yr qualifications won't think that you got the cert becos you gt the money. i rather study until die than to go work. hah.

so people, you noe it. so, don't ask me anymore... thanks for the cooperation. hahaha.

ok, off to bed. my finger still hurts from the arcade-ing. typing worse. hahahah. dah...
♥1:19 AM..Love
waited for bus 69 so long.. fed up. then waited for my feeder bus so long also. cant buses run on schedule?

i felt so sad... felt so left out... it is by actions and words, it makes me feel so weird.. i tried toking.. but i don't know why... i am always not in the conversations, jokes and everything... even people has to come and ask me, why i am not sitting with you all... i think i am not a good joker, or maybe i am not fated with people... it is like i am back to my primary school days, when no one likes me, been discriminated and left out, all because i am fat. the feeling is really not good. i know you all still cares.. but somehow.. i just feel that i am not part of you all already... is there anything that i have done wrong? if yes, please tell me...
♥5:06 PM..Love
finally get to transfer all the pics to the pc le... new year ended, school ended. soon, exam ended and thats it. i don't know what to do. hah. great. nvm, think about it next time, can drag how long i will just drag. been eating alot these few days, ate sakura yesterday and today, rice table... haizz.. fat... anyway, pics below...

preparing yu sheng.. guess what, only me and my mum ate this. lol.


completed.


friends are for life...








went out with dear today.. went to school first and went down to bugis. then went down to suntec for lunch at rice table.. then went down to ps to watch fun with dick and jane. very lame.. then home sweet home.

dear suprised me by buying a fake small small and i mean really small roses... so disappointing... but in the other hand, he actually held a real bouquet of blue roses...my fav colour... he also bought me creative zen nano... no wonder he kept telling me he been saving up... haizz.. *touched* really enjoyed myself today cos i havent been going out with him for two weeks le...

pics....












♥10:12 PM..Love
by reading it, it has make me realised what i have done wrong. yes, we are still good friends. =)
♥7:15 PM..Love
i am so disappointed in my project mark. and i dropped a grade down. wtf. i don't deserve that, it is so damn bloody unfair. all because we are a group and i have to suffer the same fate with those didn't do their work? teamwork displayed? hah! and i have one more project to get a F soon. it wont get any better.

lecturer said that law test has alot of people scoring As and Fs... and.. this proved that why we are A & F students. hah.
♥7:04 PM..Love
what to do but only to avoid...

maybe you dun like me at all.
♥4:49 PM..Love
tired.

went to piano yest. no mood at all. requested teacher to let me off early. i don't care that it is just for an hour. my mood is just not right. so, teacher let me stay in the room and rest.

met him to go my house to pay visit to my mum. guess i finish the goodies at my house and left none for my guests... and i havent go visit his parents yet.. haizz..

i just felt moody. guess i vent it out on my friends. sorry.
♥1:56 PM..Love