i was happy, for a while, when i knew of my piano result. i got 96marks. but i saw my teacher's expression, she is not very happy. haizz.. i know she has high expectations from me... but.. i am just not up to it... i started asking myself where i did wrong too, but i dunno why i get 96 when i cant find any mistakes in the paper. i haven't get to see the sections that i did wrong cos the cert just arrived to sg today. anyway, i told my mum, expected her to be happy... but she say why so low? haizz.. disappointed... she say why i didn't get full marks... is it all parents are like that? even if i get 98, she will also say why not 100.... haizz... everyone seems so unhappy about my result except me but some of my friends congrats me... =)

anyway.... been rushing for projects.. tomorrow having tax project. hope everything turns out fine... i hate new year, last time i like new year, cos gt ang bao, now, i find that gt ang bao i also dun wan... ang baos are allowance for me... but the worst thing is, you get to meet your aunties and uncles, they will start probing and bombing you with questions. what you wan to do after grad? gt bf already? and the 5 Ws questions. if not, they will make some remarks like... u have grown side ways, this and that... i am so sick of it.. and yes, it is just one day away. shit. i just want to take this holiday to rest and rest and rest... nothing i wanna do but just sleep and break away from projects... dear will be going to malaysia... that means, i will be alone.. shall disturb sher to pei me... hah.

anyway, happy new year.
♥10:40 PM..Love
i am so stressed up.

why should i care, when my members are not getting worried? i am so worried that the pfp i can't get anything out of it by wed. haven't been sleeping well... all these have been haunting me.... wat should i do? how should i do? should i inform the tutor? crying all day won't help. i am just so afraid.

i have realised that i can turn to no one when i looking for people to help me with it. i didn't know how to do.... people can always tell me, 'why didn't you ask other groups? ask yr friends?' and then i realised, who can i ask? how many friends i have in poly? who can i turn to? who will be so kind to guide me through it? did i really have true friends? or people just detest me and didn't wanna help me? i felt so hopeless. i wanna do something alone for the project, just get it over. but really can't think of how.... i been so stressful. not done with the report and not to mention the worksheets. left 3 days and nothing is done. i am giving it up. fail me then. but... i really didnt want tht to happen...
♥4:35 PM..Love
i miss shopping.... got lots of things to buy...

i miss freedom...

i miss chilling out...

i felt so stressful and tired. not enough sleep everyday... all thanks to projects. worst sem ever. pls let the torture ends soon...


me with anny's big big lollipop...


♥8:20 PM..Love
finally... no more mid sem tests... tiring, been studying for days. never felt so hardworking before. hope can pass...

went out with sher on sat.. she treated me for cafe cartel! so long never eat le.. thanks ger.. oh yah.. and my fav swesen ice cream! so delicious... went around hunting for new year clothes... didnt buy the clothes for new year in the end. bought for other normal occasions. haha... spending money away. bought one mano top.. nice... enjoyed myself away...

sun i studied whole day.. sacrificed my day out with him.. haizz.. but he bought me one addidas bag and a topshop tee.. hee.. thanks dar...

mon sent parcel to bro in usa... aiyo.. so ex.. luckily mum went with me.. the things so heavy.. don't know how sher brought those things to my house de.. haha... then realised that sending things so ma fan one... need to fold box, write this and that, seal here and there.. hope the parcel can pass the custom bah...

going to chiong projects le.. haizz... stressed up. lots of work to be done and the deadline is like.... next wed? and not 50% done. sianz.

oh yah...

p/s: happy belated bday to shan! haha... so sorry.. been busy... no time to go out with you.. BUT... i will make up for you ok... glad you had a wonderful bday celebration! take care ger... meet up soon...
♥8:21 PM..Love
i have come to a conclusion.

i am stupid.

been such an idiot... i don't blame you. i am just so super upset, so stressed up, so fed up.

yes, all because of my stupid ideas.

i don't want to give so much, do so much anymore. what for? i am not complaining, i am just disappointed. and, this is not the first time.

i know it is not your fault. just leave me alone for some time. sorry...
♥6:18 PM..Love
i am dead stressed by the projects. sianzz... everyday projects and projects. faster deadline, i don't give a damn already.

tests are coming up, none of them i think will pass...argh...

went to look for my dad today. he is okay. looks the same, went to his working place and i got a shock by the small bulldog. kept chasing me around and around, sniffing. bleah. i kept screaming and screaming. think those sleeping also got waken up by me. dad bth me also locked it up already. lolz. how ally, i got a phobia of myself. lolz...

then dad treated me and bro breakfast and lunch. he still drink and drink. bth.

some pics...

bro and i before he left for US. think he having fun there... haha..


decorations at airport.






the monkey given by darling.


nice drumsticks from japan.




the buUlldog.


ally n i.


ok, tired. dah..
♥3:46 PM..Love
hohoho... bro going to atlanta to study tomorrow... flight @ 6am. those who miss him please go send him. lolz... i am going.. yawn... abit sad lah.. but nvm... he will be back.

anyway... he will be reading my blog... SOoo... i shouldn't say nice nice things about him... i shall expose him. lolz.... yesterday, he got a HANGOVER!!! haha... and he is such a loud drunkard i must say. =P

his two friends dragging him into the house... cos... he is tOoo heavy for them to piggy back.. LOL... aiyo... his friends lighter than him lor.. bth... then he woke up found himself with bruises... toopig bro... LOl...

ok, entertained myself finish with all the fun and laughters liao.. lalala...
♥8:19 PM..Love