i am sad...

i suddenly felt so sad...

projects are never meant to be done.

its never ending and i am already 3/4 dead.

c'mon, kill me then...

but before i die, i will learn and buy insurance.

been down in luck these few days,

whatever i said, it came true.

i rather it happens only after a day or something like that.

immediate effects are always scary...

and i rather good things instead of the bads come true.

haizz.. saddness...

zhen, quek, shan and dear: guess i owe u guys pics, will send u when i free alrite? or when u all go msn tell me, then i go in... so sorry...

dear: happy 8th mth anniversary. love you.
♥9:29 PM..Love
so here am i blogging my life away... and i shall keep the entry hapPi... caution... [long blog]

first of all, merry christmas! =)

-fri-
woke up early and met zhen and quek to go ntuc and bought the ingredients back home to bake cookies and cornflakes. yes, for xmas... baked for friends whom we will be meeting and my piano teacher.. cos bribe her to let me off as i didn't do my hw... hee... anyway, we tried different type of cookies and designs...zhen baked gingerbread and quek baked christmas tree, star and snowman.. had fun, but tired... smell of cookies when i went for piano... ewww....

anyway.. the pics...

before baking


after baking


quek...



before baking.. this is chocolate chips and walnut cookies...


baking in process...


zhen and quek


quek and me


three of us...


my fav...


-sat-
christmas eve. met up with zhen, quek and shan. we predicted that orchard will have lots of people, so, we stick at tamp. went to fish n co for dinner. long time nv eat the fish and chips... nice... then went walking around for presents... was damn tired and looks so shag.. haizz... but i enjoyed my day... hee... then went to sit bumper car... i played once.. used so much energy. haha... quek and shan played twice while me and zhen tried to take pics of them... oh yah.. thanks shan for yr christmas card! its time to change the design le leh.. =P then went home quite early.. cos i was so tired and had to wake up early the next day.. sorrie girls! anyway, didn't get to sleep early, bro got cooked... got ham, prawns, clayfish and vege.. FULL.... getter fatter. shit...

pics...

fish n co!








us...




shan n me


trying to take a pic of them


clearer...


quek n me in train...


-today-

christmas day. heavy downpour in the early morning. went for chanting with him and his parents. then went for a drink and headed down to his mum's workplace and we got to slack in her office.. quite fun and interesting... we trying to be lame at the same time.. and my darling kept shouting for his mum saying he is hungry... -_- like small kid like that... lolz...

aiyo.. this boy trying to be like a rich man's son, or some sort of going-to-be director...


oh ya.. he got a new hair cut.. and looks more shuai and refreshing. ok lah, love you more.




then went for lunch.. actually... we intended to treat his parents fish n co one.. been craving for seafood platter for two.. but... stupid fish n co, came up with such a weird idea...... there is only one thing we can order.... no usual menu and cost $79.90 for two people... wtf... no wonder everywhere full house except fish n co... in the end, we didnt eat fish n co... sadded... it wasn't practical at all. then we went to aijisen... had the usual stuff.. not satisfied though. and dear was damn fed up and angry.. think he wanna scold me too...

then went down to orchard, walked around... then took neoprint.. lazy to scan.. wahaha...then went to esplanade... sit around and listen to music. went to thai express for dinner.. oh... we exchanged present. we bought for each other what we want... he bought me a pair new converse sneakers... yay... thanks dear.. so nice of u... of cos, i 'paid' him for the shoes.. i supersitious one mah... then bought for me a soft toy and card.. hee..

i bought him the cd he wanted, the cookies and card... not much things.. haha.. nvm, its the heart that counts... oh... i wrap his present in many many layers.. and he was trying to read the wrappers... Zzz....

tearing the wrappers...


choir! sound check in progress...


i thought this was cute.. the ger put the soft toy on the head and trying to balance it.. lolz...


took with my hp... took nice pics with my hp.. hee... i love my hp!


thanks for everything... thanks.. for being there for me, be it good or bad times.. love ya...
♥10:44 PM..Love
Giving up everything.

Been thinking..

Love and hate,
Hate and Love.

What I know about all these?

No answer at all.

Missing my friends dearly...
♥11:26 PM..Love
read yr blog... i don't know that will make you feel sad. i felt bad. sorry...
♥10:10 PM..Love
yesterday went to sim lim with shan to look for mp3. at first, i got so tempted to buy one.. but slowly, we got to know so many brands, so many types, so many imitations until i sianz already. dun feel like buying le. like no use also cos my phone got mp3 and radio... anyway... so bought one and its not bad... cheap cheap and good..

today went out to get ally present. hiak hiak... pig... wan clue? get from me! =P btw... where is mine ah... haha... then went around to look for things to buy but bought none. haizz... sadded. got things i wan de.. but don't know what is stopping me to pay. argh.... its so irritating to window shop. but happy though, to be out with him. went to esplanade and saw the jazz club singer there... still so nice.. then.. time is short. beofre i know it, home sweet home... its been a busy week for him and its time for us to destress. but soon it will be over for ya rite... study hard ah... =)
♥9:33 PM..Love
been to school for 2 weeks. i felt so screwed up. i don't know whether i had made a right choice, but i got no choice. i couldn't get to choose... yes, i am stessed. very. i am under pressure, breaking down... anytime. so many things...

and been in school for two weeks, i realised i am getting from bad to worse. i don't know is it becos of the environment, so many unfamiliar faces. but one thing i am sure, after the sip, i am getting more and more sarcastic, getting more and more uptight, be it school work or relationships, i am so naggy and making people irritated. this is not i want, i find that i am not me anymore, i needa change back. i am hurting more and more people, or rather, i may not know what i have done but i felt bad. if i do anything wrong to you guys, i am sincerely saying this... I AM SORRY...

i don't enjoy school anymore... =(
♥10:13 PM..Love
its been long since i last went down to china town. hah. had a very very nice supper there... the porridge is so super delicious. i miss it now. booO...

darling had his performance on sat and i wasn't there.. but glad there everyone is ok. =)

went to ochard yest to shop. didn't buy anything... saving money in progress.... okok... as if. i am not saving. anyway, enjoyed myself yesterday. and reached home, my comp is down and i have to be in school early to use the comp. haizz.. sadded. and my toopig bro actually scolded me cos he can't get into msn to chat. wtf. so smart then he install lor. whatever...

so sad that i am loving him more than he loves me. i shall change the situation. hmph....
♥1:48 PM..Love
yes! sip has finished. going back to sch! and all the assignments will come tumbling down on me. BUT, that one can wait. hahaha.... i felt so happy and relieved. weird, last time when i worked, i didn't feel this way... maybe its becos i got nothing to do with her anymore... wahahaha... my bad.

i wan shop shop... boOo...
♥8:41 AM..Love