yesterday chatted with yali on the phone... of course, i was practically complaining lah... wahaha... and yesterday felt so moody which i don't know why... my aunt called and talked to me about my dad.. haizz... watever lah... dun care...

work is fine today.... just gotten a pc and more work is coming to bother me... bOoo....

saw a dead body too. the road junction outside my company had a heavy traffic jam. a person was dead and saw it lying there... no car but there is a car bumper... probably is a hit and run case...

yeah... he came to look for me during lunch and purposely went to bugis to buy takkopochi for me to eat.. *touched* felt guilty for that... he is soOOo sweet... and it makes my day again... =)
♥8:48 PM..Love
didn't really settle down to blog properly. so, i shall do it now... life having sip is not fun.. true that you meet different kind of people, but the tasks are not wat i really wanted cos i don't really like accounting and that will bring me back to why i choose this course which i don't know why.. ya ya.. same old story.. nvm, skip this part... but so far sip is okay. the people there are kind and i hope the company don't fail me can le.. since i am weak in my accounts.

since sip started, my schedule is so different.. i got no time to go down to choir, piano and meeting him and going out with friends. and the worse thing is i am taking my piano exam next month. haiz... suddenly i felt that distinction is so far away from me now.. sianz...

and i can't meet him as and when i like now... no time to really go out on weekdays cos i worked until 615pm. weekends are only two days... now i wished i am still studying.. haiz... always like that one...

went out with my choir gang yesterday to shop.. fun hanging out with them. miss the fisherman days and jazz club.

went out with him jus now to shop shop@suntec, MS and peninsular.... saw anna at MS... haha... did lots of walking.. walked down to supreme court there and boat quay. tired... then after that went down to marina bay.. and we WALKED from the mrt station to the bbq steam boat there... nearly fainted. lolz... then waited for his parents to join us for dinner... steamboat half way it started raining.. haha... fun... then.. home sweet home...

had a fruitful weekend....
bought:
1 top
2 skirts
1 heels
1 handbag

and ya.. i know you guys wanna know how are WE doing.. haha... we are fine. and even if we have arguements, it is also my bad. =P mood swings easily. sorry dear.. he surprised me by coming down to look for me at lunchtime... haha... and just now i look at the way he tried to finish his ice cream so has to finish mine... (cos he knew i going to have my period soon and will be crying in pain soon.. haha...) his action touched me... nvm.. just blogging down so i wont forget. wahahaa... i am mean...

time with ya is always short...
how i wish i have more than 24hrs a day.
missing you more as each day past.
you are what it motivates me
to look forward to off work everyday.
♥10:58 PM..Love
i am so sad... drastic drop in my gpa... wth... haizz....

i am super tired. sianz...

happy bday quek... =)
♥8:30 PM..Love
i am so sad... drastic drop in my gpa... wth... haizz....

i am super tired. sianz...
♥8:30 PM..Love
i am fed up with everything and anything. i am sorry...

do you know the meaning of cheap labour? i got the taste of it le...

it just sucks.
♥9:37 PM..Love
haizz.. sip starts tomorrow and i am not prepared for it. i am scared. i am worried. i am not the only one who got attached to the company.. but i rather be alone. -_- contradicting rite? people told me that 11 weeks very fast one.. ya rite. i wonder how the people there are like. haiz. wat to do? only now then i start to panic. shit.
♥10:35 AM..Love
off to chalet... cya ppl...
♥3:47 PM..Love
played maple till 4.30am... Zzz woke up at 10am to continue.. think i am really mad le. nvm... then went down to tampines to buy tv. like finally ok... so boring at home without tv. think my mum also cannot tahan lah. we discussed so long on which tv to buy... Zzz.. i really wanna sleep le lor... then the salesman like also sianz of us le. haiz...

then went to din tai feng for dim sum. only the xiao long bao nice lah actually... so ex... bth... then went to buy my bro's fav dou sha bing. then walked around for awhile then home sweet home...

so tired now. not enough sleep and dark rings are here to haunt me... -_-
♥5:27 PM..Love
i want a good nite rest... and yes people, i am fine.. =) went down to bugis again to look for the bag again.. the uncle say maybe beginning of month will have, but not guarantee.. haizz.. nvm.. saw shan when i was in bugis..

i onli got one week of holiday.. but i got so many things i wanna do and go...how...
shan, quek and zhen.. find one day to go out leh..
choir gang.. where are you.... lolz..
yali... kbox leh...
missing him...

yes... after one week, i finally get to meet him. happy. delighted. just by looking at him, i am satisfied. i don't ask much.. and sorry for being insensitive just now and my childishness. maybe i have mistaken what you actually wanna me to do.. you meant well, but i didn't appreciate it. i am sorry. i will change alrite. *huggies*

oh, playing mapple again.. hooked. wanna play diabolo too.. gerard gonna lend me.. cool. gaming gaming and gaming...

some pics for fun..
got killed by fire drake..

it blows fire balls...




ship to ossy.. trying to play titantic actually.. at the front deck.


got up to the top.


see that flying monster?? balrog.. i am hiding below.. haha... nearly got killed by it.


in the basement cabin of the ship.. hiding from that stupid monster.. maple is getting cooler...
♥1:26 AM..Love
i felt so bad after my two bloody papers. this is my worst exam i had ever taken. yes, it is that bad. and i saw her at the lift. and i had a feeling that i will fail my paper tomorrow as well. maybe you can say that i think too much. but i don't know why, everytime i see her, the next thing i know, is an unlucky day waiting for me, without fail. so... well, hope it just wont come true.

sometimes, i really wanna move house. i don't wanna live at the same storey with her, living with fear that i may see her everytime i step out of my house. it has become a habbit to fear for her presence. i hate this feeling. why i must start the day off with her in my mind? even my family members don't have such a big impact in me. she will always grumble some words everytime i walked past. i will just try to be normal and i felt safe only when i lock myself in the house. do you know how i feel? why am i worrying this much? me, myself i don't know why, i just hope for peace. and maybe the only way to have peace, is to avoid troubles. and i really really fear that one fine day, she and my mum may just kick it off again. haiz... i really can't stay here anymore... and my ever never change wish is to get a place for myself as soon as i have my own income. to think i think that far. what the hell.

again, i blogged about my worries. maybe, it is just another mood swing of mine. but seriously, i haven't been feeling well the past few nights. finding some reasons to cry my heart out. wished i was dead. i don't know why i felt this way. but in the day, i am ok. what the hell am i talking? i don't know.. maybe, i should try what shan always tell me...'yes, you know one.. you really know.. don't keep saying i don't know...' but well, maybe i know, but only my heart knows.... really? i don't know again...
♥1:57 PM..Love
the mickey mouse bag is gone... =(
♥9:46 PM..Love
Sometimes the sun shines,
Sometimes the rain pours,
But it always takes BotH to make a rainbow...

happI bDay tO saN san...
♥12:08 PM..Love