argh... i was trying to sleep just now but to no avail. haizz.. yest nite i also cant get to sleep. give up le.. maybe wait for one or two days before i start dreaming again. lolz... simply miss my beauty sleep.

today went to bring my ah ma tosee my ah gong. i think he got spilt personality. haha.. cos he sometimes in the correct mind, which is the fierce side. the other side is the childish side. i think he behaves like a child at certain moments. the nurse said it might be cause by the stroke. but he can eat by himself le.

hmm... after that went back to ah ma's house and slack till the time to go for my piano. then met quek for dinner. haha... long time nv see her le.. haha.. looks great in yr specs lah.. dont worri. lolz..

tomorrow busy busy... my ah ma no one bringing her down to hospital tomorrow.. soOo... have to go early, bring her, meet cheryl at 11am at somerset. whew...

going shopping spree tomorrow.. window shopping. haha.. broke. ally: remember wake up huh...

*luv is in the air...* =P
♥10:16 PM..Love
hmm... today went for badminton. tired. tomorrow bringing my ah ma to hospital again. no choice bah. but don't know why. i just feel very tired. haizz.. then piano at nite. and i havent do my hw. and my teacher aim so high for my exam. diez... meeting quek for dinner tomorrow too. haha.. busy...

sat meeting cheryl. wah.. like so long never get to see her le. and afternoon meeting the choir gang. don't worri. i will be there.

mon meeting yali and swee choo.. haha... busy busy.

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starting afresh is always good...
fate has brought us together,
and i will cherish what i have now.
of cos, never will i forget
what you have done for me today. -.-"
♥10:23 PM..Love
quoted from a blog i came across: "Sexiness is 50% visible and 50% out of sight"
is it? haha... i guess i don't have the 50% sexiness, which means the appearance and no, the 50% out of sight which is the good inner character in me, i also don't have it. wahaha... so, nothing is good about me. sad to say that huh?

maybe things do get better. for example: i am still alive and kicking?

wahahaa... that is bullshit. being alive is a way of torturing and things don't get any better.

anyway.... just trying to blog something as i am just idling my time away in front of the comp. don't know why i on the comp for what. not mapling but just staring at the screen and blasting music. no nice tv shows either. and waiting for the grand arrival of my elder bro. he is coming back from hostel after a month of burning midnight oil. lolz...

i hate you, you hate me.
you hate me, i hate you.

wahahaha... i am just ddown with boredom. someone entertain me pls.
♥8:30 PM..Love
my aunts they all looking for a veri free person who can bring my ah ma to hospital everyday. guess they found me. haha.. i am soO super jialat in speaking teochew. haizz.. but at least my grandma understands me. haha.. if not really one chicken one duck. anyway, i am super sleepy now. Zzz.
♥6:33 PM..Love
omg... my mum came home and told me tht the malay guy's wife died le... after two days of struggling... kinda sad man. haizz.... what the hell is this.. haizz...
♥9:32 PM..Love
just came back from tan tock seng hospital. went to visit my grandpa with my mum. he is now still in ICU. but guess he is better now bah... the doctor said he fainted yesterday and with abit of infection in the lungs. not sure about the details cos he said later in the noon when my grandma go then update more... my grandpa has just woke up but still cannot open the eyes... i called him he gt responses... maybe later can go to the normal ward le.

then down there, my mum was talking to a guy whose wife is now still unconscious. his wife suffered from asthma attack and fainted. and havent wake up for like... 2days? omg lor.. so sad... see him like so tired. haizz.. then the doctor also donno when his wife will wake up. he just wait and wait lor.. with two kids.. 7 and 6yrs old.. so young. haizz... just someone tell me what is life? really lor.. think my family is being cursed. haha.. one thing after another. hope my grandpa will be alrite bah..
♥10:46 AM..Love
haizz... just realised that my eyes just go blur at times. is like got something block my sight? argh.. donno how to explain it. but last time wont one.. am i going to be blind? haha... i think play too much comp le.. but i am addicted to it? haizz... can u imagine i just sit there and stare at the screen for more than 5 hours? come to think of it.. i am siao. haha... if no comp i will just sit there and stone lor.. bad bad.. i am definitely going to cut down on the usage.
♥11:28 PM..Love
haiz.. dont you people find it warm at night? omg.. kept sweating... or is it me who felt this way?

today went to tamp with my bro... cos he wanna buy stationery and bedok is like.. dont have bookshop? ya... then went around looking for his pencil case. so difficult to find a pencil case for a guy. we went hunting like that. from tm to century then back to tm then up and down down and up. omg~ my legs going to die le... and finally settle on a billabong one..

and yay! mum is having a night out at ah ma's house! woo hoo!! haha... finally peace for my ears... lolz... but wth... no show on sat again.. *bored*

and mum cooked so early for dinner.. now i super hungry.. -.-
♥11:10 PM..Love
haizz.. the maple is going to kill me man. i am now playing the new and the old version. new+old= train nothing. haha... haizz.. and mum is never satisfied with what i did. always find things to chao with me. if i lazy, i wont go to market, i wont hang laundry and i wont iron clothes. i think she just wan me to be a perfect housewife like her. haha. she can just forget abt the thought. cos it is never my ambition. haha. crapped. anyway, i think she just dont wanna see me. haha.. having cold war with her.. but ok lah.. used to it can le. haha...

yeah.. zhen told me yest that roti boy will be open in tm. haha.. finally it is getting near me. lolz.. ok.. i am a freak. lolz.. but it is really nice k.
♥10:19 AM..Love
i just love home alone... haha... entertaining myself with the blasting music. haha.. mapling away... i am mad. trying to get everyone hook on this game. wahaha... yup. mum ask me to wake up to prepare breakfast tomorrow for my bro. -_-" for yr info, we dont eat bread and milo for breakfast. lolz.. i think everyone will just puke if i mention it. lolz...

anyway.. she also asked me to cook dinner tomorrow.. haha.. see my mood lor.. but cant blame.. she is working late shift this month. haizz.. she say i too free liao.. lolz.. guess what i reply her? i will cook if i level up tomorrow. lolz.. there she goes... started to nag. lolz.. trying to trigger her actually. but yah.. of cos, when she around i try not to play lah.. i am not a siao gamer who just sit down there and kept facing the comp. i think i will really go mad. haha...

and today i chopped the small chilli... and damn, i go rub my eyes after that. cos i really forgot that i have JUST CHOPPED it!! and i go wailing.. lolz.. kept shouting pain.. cos is like my eyes are burning.. haha.. but after 15mins.. i am alrite.. still can see.. haha..

ok, after all the craps that i have typed, here is something... i miss my sec sch.. dont you people? haizz.. today walk past damai... my god.. change so much.. cant blame.. i didnt visit the school.. not even once after it has renovated. hah. i am feeling guilty now. i wanna see the sch and also the teachers. anyone free? but cant just go back rite.. so weird. lolz..
♥8:29 PM..Love
argh... i hereby condemn mage... they only know how to hit from afar... what is the big deal when they can hit the monsters without having their hp minus off?? they dont even know when i steal their items from afar too. wahaha... they are just some arrogant people. hmph. k lah.. i only admire those who go around helping people.. wahaha... heal me.. lolz.. k.. this suppress my anger now. lolz..
♥2:58 PM..Love
i am feeling much better le.. thanks people. =)
yest went for a performance at soka hq. a jazz musical performed by a flautist called Nestor Torres. quite nice. and i finally know what can be expected of a flute. haha...

but i missed the NKF show. when is the 2nd telecast?

thankz tc for the 'thing'. haha.. it is cute. =)
♥9:42 AM..Love
shut.
closed up.
numb.

it is just so wonderful to be living in my own world.
and i miss singing.

wo yi jing bu xu yao ni le.
wo zhi xu yao peng you jiu gou le.
♥8:00 AM..Love
my mum say i am HEARTLESS. am i? pls lor, if from the day i step on this earth, you have defined what is a loving family, i wont think this way. nvm, i know what am i thinking can le. anyway, the verdict goes on.

yeah.. angel sent me lots of his pics.. damn happi.. 2 mths nv see him le!
♥12:44 PM..Love
the trial is on wed... he said he is guilty. hmm... what should i do?
♥10:46 PM..Love
argh... i just cant stand the sight of it. i have received the seventeen membership card. but it printed my name wrongly!! i am not going to tell you all the typo error, if not you all will be laughing your head off. bleah. i shall call up the company on monday to see whether i can change the card or not. oh, and i just received my prima deli membership card as well. =)

was looking through the skins just now and i found this. nice hor?


it just set me thinking.
♥9:45 PM..Love
thankz angel for sending me his pic.. it really makes my day.. =)

friends are hard to come, easy to go...
treasure them and pls, dont neglect them.
♥12:19 AM..Love
i think you are kinda pissed off by me.. or rather, by everyone. but once again, things don't happen like what we want. promise is important to me. i didnt mean to put areoplane but under such circumstances, if you were me, what will you do? i know it is unfair for you, but what about me? i did tried, and i ended up quarrelling with my mum again. you didnt know and i just don't wanna tell everyone about it again. it is tiring. i tried to explain, but i think, it is time to let you cool down first.
♥10:41 AM..Love
it is always fun to have friends.
got people to care for you and take care of your well being.
haha. what am i toking.
anyway, i think i can handle it. no worries friends.

i really dont know what you are thinking.
but after that day, i believe i know how you feel.
i should know my limits too.
kinda disappointed but yap,it is over.
i know everything.
lets be friends 4eva.
things just dont follow as what you expected.
♥1:46 AM..Love
i had two nightmares last night. i think i am crazy. and both were about the same thing. RESULTS. bleahz. yap, i know it is boring but i also don't know why? i woke up twice last night. i failed my FOI. and people are laughing at me? stupid dream right? the other is that i went for my CMA supp paper and i failed again. omg... i think i am having a phobia on exams. i dont wish to dream of those anyway. shit. madness.

it continues to pour...
♥2:00 PM..Love


i was so bored that i searched through my comp and found this, which i nearly forgot about the incident. this happened 1 mth ago? yap.. when i was feeling lucky when everything was right in place, i came across the gM.. and i seriously hope that i will see one again. but right now, i think i am lacking of something. things happen so unexpectedly. and losing and gaining friends in the process. looking at how people changes and the way you change your opinions about them. maybe i will be more grown up after everything. putting fake smile in front of everyone is not what i want or who i am. but i cant just go up to everyone and say: hey, i am in a foul mood now.

i think this will make people sick of me.

so, i have been staying away from the outside world, locking myself at home, reflecting. or rather, routine life. woke up, play games, stoning, listening music. looking at the sky wishing it wasnt raining(seriously i dont know why i wish for that)

sometimes i just need to be alone. it wont affect others but me and myself.
♥3:38 PM..Love