i dont know why leh... but things seems to be coming after one another... come to think of it, yap. everytime after i getting over one, another problem will come.. even if i said just leave it, it doesnt mean that they can just keep coming. i really dont know how to cope but just leave it as it is. this year is sure not my lucky year. just March and lots of troubles which i dont wanna list. nothing gd. what will you do if it happens to you? till then, awaiting another problem to come.
♥3:03 PM..Love
ok, i am happi the whole day until now. shall not wash dirty linens in public. i only know one thing comes after another until i am so sick of it. wtf. =(
♥12:24 AM..Love
yap... examz are over. shall see how i die after two weeks.
everything is under control. one way of solving: dont think. haha... leave it until the worst day comes.. yesterday went out with the pig. enjoyed listening to her crappings. hah. i got so many things to do.... to- do- list is getting longer. money is not enough.. help.
♥11:17 AM..Love

almost a week... and many things happened. at home and outside home. i still have one more paper to go. had days giving my dad cold shoulder as we quarelled. and yap, first time i really opened up my mouth to shout at him. and i cried for a day. i dont know why, but definitely not because of my dad. he is not worth it. maybe stress? yap, most probably and maybe some other stuff... which i dont wanna say anymore. jsut wanted to end everything soon.

and to choir, i have to make such a decision now, at this point of time during exam period. i have decided to quit. sorry guys. it is a very difficult for me to make such decision.
it is not a decision made on impulsion. everytime near the end of month, i will be very vexed to think of how am i going to ask my mum for piano fees. and learning piano has become a burden. cos she will start asking, when are you going for exam? why you this month only go for twice and so on. i really cant help it as my lesson is on every friday and if you notice this year, most of the holidays fall on friday. and added that my sch has a week of holiday. and thats it. i told her and she dont understand. she dont understand, i dont intend to tell her more. just that she asked me to choose choir or piano. i knew she would screamed at me if i have said choir. cos from the beginning when i determined to learn piano, she has told me not to give up half way. thus, not to disappoint her and also to keep up the promise i have made. i choose piano. i really cant help it. but anyway, i gonna give up both. i dont want anymore committments. no point. i did try to pay in certain months, when i dont wanna ask her for anything. but.. ya... if only i have my own money... everything will be so different now. haiz... really sadded to say that a 19yrs old kid still need approval for what she wants in life.

tribute to choir
hope you all will understand... i love the people there. they are the ones who i cant bear to leave... every week, four hours of practices, for two years in tp. i love the outings we have and the fun we had in choir... i know i have disappointed you all that i have to leave like that. really gonna miss ya guys. i thought i can hang on whenever i see someone quitting.. i always think that i will be the one always saying i am quitting but never will i. but yap, gonna quit.. maybe i wont get a chance to sing in a choir anymore? ten years in choir.. what i will miss in TP choir?
definitely is the cosy studio 4... with the out of tune piano sitting there...
aunty luobing.. always there to kpo with her abt the 'uncle'...
anna.. i will miss coming out with lame terms.. two invented terms: an-na and dustbin.. wont forget..
ally the pig.. see her playing piano will be like seeing jay chou concert. the best is yet to come ya?
junbin... my sister. hah.
pat.. will miss her da dao li and instructions... will miss the things we always discuss when we on the way home.
huimian- the bian tai one.. she got the power to see through one's mind.
isabelle... my favourite junior? the retard one.
edith and weimin... the two potential new juniors.
vivien... her voice.. she always sit beside me and i always love her powerful voice.
phoebe... her coolness.
siewyong... the siao cha bo. really nice to have her around as everything lightens up under her jokes.
zhiying... she is in aus and i dont know whether i will get to see her?
yanling... the one who i dont see often but heard often.
the guys... dont have them, we dont have music at all.
sometimes, it is really good to have chamber choir, it will bring one close to another. easier to communicate too..

really love ya to bits... hope we will keep in touch ya?haizz.. am having regrets now.. how?
♥9:17 PM..Love
can i sleep my troubles away?
♥10:45 AM..Love
我有一个属于自己的空间...

安全的空间, 自由的空间

大多时候心情很平静
但有些时候会充满着各种情绪

这个地方, 一直都只有我一个人
但是现在已经改变了...

现在我对你说:
Where your vision
and dreams come true...
Haven
♥12:02 AM..Love
today went molly malone to find min.. went to be his customer.. really like the atmosphere there.. so nice.. like the shepherd pie... and i finally get to eat the roti boy.. not bad.. anyway...

love this pic.. so nice..




definitely going to get guang liang album... veri nice.. thumbs up.
♥10:39 PM..Love
to min: haPpi 19th bDay tO u... =)
♥12:05 AM..Love

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♥12:26 PM..Love
我并不想这么做。。。
我只想让你知道，
我还是我，
请不要多说。。。
不要再纠缠着我，
我很累了。
♥11:50 AM..Love
chionging...
so much things to do.. but yet to be done.
due date: thurs.
wish me luck...

i believe i can...


♥3:00 PM..Love
Traumatized.

i just dont wanna talk about it.

i will be the same old me again...
♥10:11 PM..Love
nightmare...
totally shock, stunned.
never have i thought it will happen.
never will i forget yesterday.

though it was over...

but..

the scenes during that day haunt me.
anything related to it triggers me.. even scenes in movie..
i will get uptight.
i dont know what to do..
but still, i will try to overcome it.
just hope for the best i think.
♥11:42 PM..Love
first of all.. all e best to shan for her A lvl..

one more summative test to go.. Zzz...
projecting over weekend. Zzz...

retraining my character.. add me dudes- raiNniEz
say byebye to jUsgEr le.. haizz.. lvl 35 though..

confusion empowering me.
something is stopping me..
♥6:34 PM..Love
no maple today. mum nagged until siao liao..
anyway, lvl 35 liao. wahahaha... next aim: level 40.
super tired.... off to bed... shH....
♥6:48 PM..Love
skipped lect this morning.. cant wake up lah.. veri tired.. and somemore after lect no one pei me until 12pm. so... just woke up.. and went visiting his blog.. his blog's music is so nice.. albert's style man.. haha.. by listening to it makes my day.. =D
♥8:35 AM..Love