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try this! true true true.....

♥12:24 PM..Love
went lib to study... sO noisy... especially that stupid photocopy machine... DOTZ...

just realised that my cds is quite applicable. haha... go everywhere also will link it back to the topics one. and oh yah.. did i talk about Martin Lurther King? he was a very powerful speaker. powerful powerful.. way too powerful.... haha... the best speaker that i ever came across....... "i have a dream...." WooOOo.... anyway, entertaining myself... haha...

have been going crazy with my friends these few days.. getting too crappy.. haha... too stress up... ok, its ME who is entertaining them... whatever... *roll eyes* sure kena bash up by friends one of these days. bleahzz...

tomorrow gonna be a long day... will have to sit through the whole bursary ceremony.. sad...

but nvm! haha... lUv this song to the core....................... yeah!...... i think i am really crazy le...

 was so high I did not recognize
The fire burning in her eyes
The chaos that controlled my mind
Whispered goodbye as she got on a plane
Never to return again
But always in my heart

This love has taken it's toll on me
She said goodbye too many times before
And her heart is breaking in front of me
I have no choice cause I won't say goodbye anymore

I tried my best to feed her appetite
Keep her coming every night
So hard to keep her satisfied
Kept playing love like it was just a game
Pretending to feel the same
Then turn around and leave again

This love has taken it's toll on me
She said goodbye too many times before
And her heart is breaking in front of me
I have no choice cause I won't say goodbye anymore

I'll fix these broken things
Repair your broken wings
And make sure everything is alright
My pressure on her hips
Sinking my fingertips
Into every inch of you
Cause I know that's what you want me to do

This love has taken it's toll on me
She said goodbye too many times before
And her heart is breaking in front of me
I have no choice cause
I won't say goodbye anymore



♥10:00 PM..Love
going into depression mood again. everything is bothering me. projects and everything. have been rushing for time the whole week. and now, i got no time to study. f man.

finally i handed in the individual project. can really feel that the burden is lighter. haizz.. but then... came another one. legal. they are too excited about it. but yah... wait for tests are over? and this sat i have to attend that bursary ceremony. and san is backed, but she nv really contact me to meet up with her. nvm, she is busy. haiz.. i am kinda disappointed about it. promises. all gone... but ok, i appreciated that she kept her promise that she will call me once she reach sg. thankz.. anyway, she will be gone again on 3rd aug. can't really spend time with her. i havent meet her yet. and i thought that i will be excited when she comes back from canada, but somehow, my mood is not adjusted to it. maybe is school works that makes me down. sad to say that i am a person who will link everything to a mood for the day one. so, if i feel sad, i will think of lots and lots of negative stuff and it will make things worse even though i know, things are not like what i am thinking. but sianzz... i am willing to find time for her. but doubt she can make it.

and i mentioned that i wanna to study right? i fall asleep. everyday. books are lullaby. i don't know what is happening to me. so many things to juggle, so many things to worry. haiz. so much for school.

told u all already..... life sucks.....


♥12:18 AM..Love
heh heh.... new song.. current favourite song.. lolz...

finished doing my cds project. haha... find that 1200 words is actually not enough. whatever... but felt so uneasy. maybe i will fail? haha.. i don't know... and have been falling asleep for today's lecture and tutorial... sadded... haizzz... these few days keep sleeping at 3am. so tired.......... finished my APEL reflection also. haha.. yeah! but havent study... shall start studying now. ZzzZ...

♥8:57 PM..Love
i woke up with swollen eyes. i shouted into the mirror. hah. and went to see a doctor. the doctor also don't know what is wrong with me, but she suspect it is allergic. but can't be mah. i don't allergic to anything. then asked me what i ate yesterday. nothing mah... ban mian.. can't be.. shan also ate the same thing as me yest but she is ok. ate bread? can't be, my bro ate the same thing as me. still got eat what ah... chestnut? can't be lah... if seafood i still believe lor. unless is ice chocolate that did wonderful stuff to me. hah. the doctor asked me to go for blood test and urine test. but, i ran away. bleah... was rushing for the time to meet albert for scores and decided to go sch as there were too many things for me to do.. have to hand in project, do projects, take this take that. haiz. whatever... but didn't go for APEL. got MC mah.. don't waste. haha... lectures are important. lolz. anyway, my eyes are better now. at least not that pain and itchy. weird. just a few hours of sleep and ta da..... got swollen eyes. lolz...

have to rush finish the stupid 'apple' reflection by today. hmph. I BELIEVE i can. haha.. whatever.... actually don't feel like coming home so early. but..  i see my face also sianz half le.. so damn ugly. haizz.. normally ugly liao... now.. haizz.. no face to see people ah.. today saw him in canteen also don't feel at least excited. lolz... so sad ah.... haizz...

today is luo bing's bday!! haPpi bDaE aUntY!! lalala....

 

♥4:37 PM..Love
oh man.... i am so tired.... tired until i can fall asleep in front of the comp. yes......... i did it again.. ZZz.. sleeping in front of comp is getting common huh...

i think i shall stop eating sweets for the time being. the sugar is really toooooo highhh... that yali lah, show me the packaging today... dotz leh.. makes me so guilty. haizz... and oh yah, don't drink too much bubbletea. a cup of bbt with milk and pearls has 6 teaspoons of sugar. oh man..... soooo highhhh... but anyway, must console myself.. i don't buy milk tea mah.. i buy red tea... lolz.. anyway, lame with swee choo today. told her i will not eat sugar stuff but eat salty stuff. and like what? chicken biscuits. lolz.. how come i can't find chicken biscuit in NTUC ah?? bookshop one is not bad. can get addicted one.

and i must start saving up again... meeting albert to get scores from him to photocopy tomorrow.. and just went to see that APEL template.. omg... i can't do it. don't even have an idea of what and how i should i start it. haizz.. sianzz...

sch is really sucks. they sure know how to keep up us busy. after projects submission, will be mid sem tests next week. and after that will be projects again. what the hell...... is like start sch for only one month plus only and ta da........ mid sem..... siao de...

haizz.. just woke up and don't feel like sleeping liao.. think i better study something before i go to sleep. haizz... and tomorrow got to meet early for project.  oh man... told you guys.. life sucks. haha... think i complaing too much.. so naggy.. bth....


♥12:34 AM..Love


wOaH.... sEe thIS??? the piano is damn chio lor... sEe the ChaIR??? omg.... so nice... my drEam pIanO....dREam......

♥6:36 PM..Love
came back from sch. ya.. you didn't hear wrongly. i went back to sch on a sunday. went to do legal project. i think sch will be a good place to study on a sun... no people. quiet. but of cos lah, no lab and everything. but got vending machines.. yum yum.... i am surprise got ppl go sch to do projects also. haha... nowadays students are sooo hardworking. =x anyway, havent finish the project. gt to rush my cds project liao... havent do the reference things. sianzz...  

♥5:54 PM..Love
came from 85 market. haizz... don't know what happen. something was not right. the atmosphere was not right. and my mood was not that good. haizz... sorrie guys... i know it is hard for us to get together. but.. haizz.. won't be like that next time. but no promises. hah.

i need someone to talk to. my moody days are coming back. and haiz. choir has stand down and i kinda sianz cos i miss choir.. and sianzz.. got so many stuff to do and still in square one.

wanna chat chat chat... but haizz... i dont feel like approaching anyone. haizz....... sucks....


♥11:07 PM..Love
delicated this song for ally. i believe by fantasia.

gonna fail my test today.

gonna do project in sch tomorrow.

gonna go 85 market. buaizz..

♥7:45 PM..Love
everyday i kena scoldings from my bro. kaozz... whatever lor. he better off to hostel soon lah. shit him. as if i don't have him i will die. every night when he comes home, always i tio one. tell my mum, she also can't do anything, cos she is sleeping already. always say me until i so useless. ya lah, i know lah, people clever mah, not computer idiot mah.. people clever mah, go uni study mah. AS IF everything he knows. he knows then don't ask me anything lah! felt like it then talk to me. wtf. i am not his dog.

even if i don't know anything abt comp, from now on, i will not ask him. i rather go and ask experts. i rather ask my friends. at least they will not say u stupid and rails at you. i am not born to let him scold lor. if he thinks so, i am sorry lor.

♥7:24 AM..Love
guess what? i found out something interesting. haha... went home early today and i was in bus 69 and i overheard two guys talking. not that i want to hear one k, is they spoke so loudly and i heard it! guang ming zheng da one... ok, the story goes like this.

the guy asked his friend, do you think we should have a gf at our age? the friend said, why you ask? you want ah?

then i don't know what they said.... i catch abit here and there lah. lolz. anyway, their conclusion was that he wants to have one. but difficult to find. then he commented on his friend saying, you this type of looks can find, me want also don't have people want. my pattern nobody wants. haha... then the guy went on saying very difficult to maintain ah.. got to work ah... blah blah blah..

then nvm........ they still went on saying got what stages. haha.. ok..... i heard it again. lolz. they say got four stages, first stage, hold hands. second stage, kiss. then say what, stop at third stage never go to the important one... very DOTZ leh... these type of things talked on bus.. and somemore say it like nobody business!!! my god... still nevermind, still say want find gf must find those devoted one and prepare ffor lifelong one... O_o then his friend said, 'aiya... happy can liao.. then say if same class very sianz de.. later kena reject... ' then i heard something...'don't know what girls are thinking..' ZZzzzzZ dotz lor.. find it very funny..... guys talking about these... i thought only girls will have girls talk... lolz.... bth.. i was grinning all the way to interchange. i don't know how to say it lah.. but really, they talked until so exagerating... lolz..... really wonder what guys are thinking nowadays... lolz...

ok, enough.. anyway, today i was quite in a good mood. lolz... cos i saw him a few times! lolz.. really ah.. liting is my lucky charm. haha... but ok lah... haha... whatever...

yesterday do my cds project until 3am. i am surprised that i am so energetic now.. wonder what time will i sleep.. lolz.. anyway, target to finish typing the review by today. no time no time......

tomorrow gonna have another badminton session again.. but tomorrow class is really really sianzz....... CMA and CAS... haizz... but of course lah.. sianz also must attend one.. must go listen... *guai* haha.. but nvm.. as long got friends around me to talk to can liao.. lalala...

and for those who don't know yet, choir has stand down for exams.. it will resume on 10th august... P/S: paiseh ah zhiying.. forgt to sms u abt it... soooo sorrie.....

 


♥10:59 PM..Love
i havent start writing my movie review.... how... actually i started yesterday, and was doing half way. but when i read the email sent by my tutor, i realised i have wrote out of point and i have to rewrite.. haizz.. sadded... kinda lazy liao... and my mood really fluncturates nowadays. haizz.. sorry if i offended anyone.

and have been starring and stoning until min called.  and really have a good laugh. haha... guess what??? he brought a Gucci wallet for......... $380!!!!!!!! omg.. wth... i wont pay so much for a wallet. but guess he like it very much bah. haha... bth.. keep telling me abt the wallet.haha... siao de... and practically he kept laughing and so hyper when talked abt tht wallet. and i was laughing abt it.. kept saying.. 'really ex leh...' haha... $380 leh.. i can spend it on lots of stuff... haha... but maybe you all think that this price is reasonable bah. haha... 

haizz.. sianzz. tot of my cds very sianzz.. three hours of tutorial tomorrow.. sian sian.............. thurs is the worst day. got three tutorials in one day. haizz... sure sleep de.. ZzzzZ

♥10:46 PM..Love
today was a very sianz sianz day. haizz.. real sianz. whole day lectures. damn boring. and nearly vent anger on my friends. just felt very pissed suddenly. don't know why also. somemore that stupid lecture i don't understand a thing. and guess what? this sat got a class test. what the hell.. haizz.. and yeah yeah.. coming back to school on sunday to do project. WOOoo....
 
gotta have a busy busy week ahead.... sianzz....

♥10:51 PM..Love
think he broke up with his gf le... no more i love... and this reminded me that this afternoon my friend called and told me she saw him smoking at the bus stop. so sad. haizz.. i hate smokers.. haizz.. but i wonder what happen to him? although i don't know him.. but i hope he is doing fine...
 
--------
 
memories flashed back again.. when i was in the company working.. with him around. everthing was so blissful.
 
haizz.. whatever, don't think........


♥11:24 PM..Love
argh... i am so sick.. have a running nose the whole day le.. now, i got a sore throat and a slight fever. whatever.. intend to spend my time doing tutorials de but really cannot tahan ah.. too difficult to think sia.. no mood to think. haizz. sadded.
 
and my bro is all really to move into hostel. my house is becoming more and more like pig sly liao. haizz... all his things. and anyway, tried to borrow money from him today. hope he remember to bring back.. i am broke..
 
stupid running nose is killing me.. used up like don't know how many packets of tissues. so long never flu liao then suddenly come. sianzz.. and it broke my record. normally i used 3 to 4 packets of tissue. guess what? i used 7 packets. and of course, is 'fully used' one k... haha.. and is still going on. haizz.. gotta sleep early tonight..

♥10:05 PM..Love
ok.. i must be crazy. early morning blogging.. haha... but i kinda addicted to it. if one day never blog, i will feel so weird. haha... anyway, saw quek on the way to school. haha.. surprise! and my nose  kept wanting to sneeze but nothing come out. sianzz.. very xin ku ah...

♥9:53 AM..Love
backed from the interview. i was damn nervous just now when a friend of another person came out and told her what the person asked. and it was the same question the person asked me a year ago. what the company do? haha.. and i forgot to memorise the thing and so, i was spending the rest of my time there thinking of how to crap. but once i started thinking, the person ask me to go in liao.. Zzz... ok, as usual, asked me about my family everything. practically everything.
 
and i saw the person who asked and lectured me a year ago there. heng ah.. not him this time.. whew... i will remember the scoldings de.. bleah....
 
but somehow, i felt that haizz.. i wont get it this time. everything just went too smoothly until i felt so uneasy. haizz..
 
anyway, my friend told me it is true that she is going to migrate. haizz.. what to do.. another friend gone.. have to write emails again.. haha... but she can't has a say in all these. so, i hereby wish u all the best.. haha.. too early to wish her. but who knows?? maybe one of these days again, she will surprise me by telling me that she will be leaving soon. or maybe tomorrow?? haha... whatever.. crap too much while doing the pca project reflections. haha....

♥6:34 PM..Love
omg... i think i am old. i am so tired. maybe is because i went out the whole day yesterday. haha. my energy level is so limited. haha. yesterday went to school at 11am. was supposed to meet for cds project. but one of the members was late and so, ally and i delegate tasks and ta da! our meeting ended.
 
ally and i went to my house, get changed and went out again. went to orchard. there was this shop selling all kinds of dolls and i was telling ally how scary it will be when at night it will start waking up and stuff like that. and the boss heard us. and was telling us, 'scary don't come in, you are not welcome.' dotz... we were talking among ourselves and she was not supposed to comment on it. but whatever... i will still say it is scary. bleah...
 
then went to pasta mania for dinner and i found something that is nice.. haha.. i shall eat that next time.. lolz.. then, we were on the move again. this time, to the esplanade. there was this baybeats thingy there, where there were rock bands playing. bands from, thailand, japan, australia, japan, hongkong and singapore. i was surprised by what the people wore. really surprise... and the air was polluted. very very very.. kept changing places to stand but still can smell the ciga smokes.. sianzz.. but what can i expect? haha... i have a great time there. listening to those bands although i am not very into it. haha.. don't really understand the music. and the guys were practically going ga-ga over the 'venus butterfly', an all girls band from thailand. haha...  and i was looking out in the sky but can't find fireworks. haha...
 
yeah.. yesterday i was so slack slack slack. and now, i don't have the mood to do tutorial. haha.. whatever.. projects not done yet. die die... now talk about it, i start worrying liao. but heck, i better think of my bursary interview later.. haizz.. how... going for the interview.. and i went before.the questions are tough.. haizz.. and the worst is, it is in town... haizz.... travel all the way to town again.. haizz... how ah.. having butterflies liao.. sianzz..
 
 

♥9:08 AM..Love
omg... blogger changed again.. ZZzz.. but ok lah.. like more interesting like that.. anyway, went to play badminton in school with meihui they all. anyhow play lah, although i don't know how to play. haha.. at least get some exercise. lolz. so long never play le.. haha.. and i skipped cas lecture.. actually, not really skip lah. went for an hour and she was repeating herself and i don't understand. so we went off. heard that the lecturer was fed up. maybe is the drastic drop of people left in the LT. haha.. whatever... and i saw ling and angeline in sch today! WOOo....
 
anyway, today is shuhui bday!! haPpi BdaY!!! =)

♥7:19 PM..Love
>>> >MOMENTS IN LIFE
>>> >
>>> >There are moments in life when you miss someone
>>> >so much that you just want to pick them from
>>> >your dreams and hug them for real!
>>> >
>>> >When the door of happiness closes, another opens;
>>> >but often times we look so long at the
>>> >closed door that we don't see the one,
>>> >which has been opened for us.
>>> >
>>> >Don't go for looks; they can deceive.
>>> >Don't go for wealth; even that fades away.
>>> >Go for someone who makes you smile,
>>> >because it takes only a smile to
>>> >make a dark day seem bright.
>>> >Find the one that makes your heart smile.
>>> >
>>> >Dream what you want to dream;
>>> >go where you want to go;
>>> >be what you want to be,
>>> >because you have only one life
>>> >and one chance to do all the things
>>> >you want to do.
>>> >
>>> >May you have enough happiness to make you sweet,
>>> >enough trials to make you strong,
>>> >enough sorrow to keep you human and
>>> >enough hope to make you happy.
>>> >
>>> >The happiest of people don't necessarily
>>> >have the best of everything;
>>> >they just make the most of
>>> >everything that comes along their way.
>>> >
>>> >The brightest future will always
>>> >be based on a forgotten past;
>>> >you can't go forward in life until
>>> >you let go of your past failures and heartaches.
>>> >
>>> >When you were born, you were crying
>>> >and everyone around you was smiling.
>>> >Live your life so at the end,
>>> >you're the one who is smiling and everyone
>>> >around you is crying.
>>> >
>>> >Please send this message to those people
>>> >who mean something to you (I JUST DID);
>>> >to those who have touched your life in one way or another;
>>> >to those who make you smile when you really need it;
>>> >to those who make you see the
>>> >brighter side of things when you are really down;
>>> >to those whose friendship you appreciate;
>>> >to those who are so meaningful in your life.
>>> >
>>> >If you don't send it, don't worry,
>>> >nothing bad will happen to you;
>>> >you will just miss out on the opportunity
>>> >to brighten someone's day with this message!!!
>>> >
>>> >Don't count the years - count the memories...........
>>> >
>>> >Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take;
>>> >but by the moments that take our breath away!
>>> >
♥10:14 PM..Love
yeah.. back home.. practiced my piano... miss it so so much.. in a good mood today. went for lunch at TM with swee choo and yali.. haha.. find some of my present tutors are very cute.. haha.. chan seet meng really look and behaves like mr tan. even kok yeow agreed. haha.. and phua tc.. very cute.. haha.. he tok very fast. but enjoyed his lectures as he is not that strict.. and won't give us black face. haha.. and my legal aspect relief tutor.. he is very good. cute.. haha.. hope that he will not leave us so soon. haha..
♥6:21 PM..Love
haha... bro is back! gt satay.... but at this point of time.. so late... haha... saw his blog.. glad that he is picking up his life. and finally he is blogging! hehe.. but.. saw him smoking today.. sad sad sad.. but ok lah, not exactly i saw it. is swee choo said she saw. haizz.. luckily i didn't see it if not i will be cursing and swearing.. and when i left school, i saw him again! haha.. but is yali told me de.. haha.. motivation is coming back.. haha... and tomorrow i shall go early to school to meet up with yali and swee choo... although we are in different class, glad that we are still together at times.. caiyu.. i donno.. she seems to be so busy.. and swee choo said he maybe going tour around after grad.. and yali.. haizz.. so sad... now i hate people who say they are going overseas.. haha.. whatever...

anyway, trying to buck up my studies.. but, still the same.. haha... and we are going to have committee meetings at anytime..

actually got alot of things in mind. but i don't know how to start it.. haha.. and bro gave me a big big shell from malaysia!! yeah!! haha..
♥12:30 AM..Love
back home from choir.. lots of stuff to do.. choir stuff.. and i got reimbursed le!! yeah... but have alot of creditors. must start paying off debts tomorrow.. haha.. sadded... anyway, brother went to malaysia since yesterday and still he is not back yet. weird. even sher is finding him now. wonder where he is? and he better remember to buy food for me... hohoho.... food...
♥11:24 PM..Love
came back from school.. just don't feel like staying in school for another moment. i like peace. everything was so sad... reached school early morning and it was a good start. but after tutorial, thoughts ran through my mind. life was difficult. it is not easy to be a person. or should i say, being a human is a torture. if i have a choice, i won't wanna be a human in my next life if i were to go through the same life as i am now. everything just sucks. people changed, life changed to a worse, environment also. sad to say that i am living in such a life with lots of unreasonable people, selfishness, unfairness, and friends are leaving from my life. sad sad sad... face the real world: people are either your friends or foes.

i miss so many things.. i said i want memories to live in me. but, will one day i forget about them? will i remember them after a long long time? i really hope to go back to the past. my life now is really in a mess. miss everyone.. have been spending time thinking and missing.. thought ran through my primary school and secondary school life.. the first day i stepped into this poly.. my dream when i was in secondary 3, i always hope to be in temasek polytechnic. whenever i took 69 to tampines, when i past by tp, i will always tell whoever is beside me that one fine day, i will be in there.. but until now, i am still regretting.. the course... just like, when you looked at tp from the outside, you will feel that it is so big. but once you really stepped inside, you will realise how small tp is. i don't know why it has to be today.. maybe when one is having bad moods, thoughts about what you really think comes... anyway, life has to move on.. but it is really difficult. something just can't be changed and is pulling me back...

spent some time talking to zhen in the lab just now. just realised that i haven't been talking to her face to face for such a long time. we communicate through letters.. just hope that all my friends will be happy always...

today is cheng you's bday.. HaPpi BdaE....


♥4:16 PM..Love
just realised i don't seem happy in the neocards. haha... maybe i am too tired.. don't know why i am so blur nowadays and have been feeling very sleepy.. shall go home straight to day to sleep. gonna have CAS lab later.. sianzzzz.... wanna sleep sure wake up by her voice de. haizz...
♥7:15 AM..Love
hoho.. went to watch spidey... very very nice! preferred part 2 than part 1. touching.. action packed. haha.. think alot off you have watched the show. so shall not blog about. but i am surprise, after two weeks, the queue for the spiderman 2 was still very very long.. announcements were made. such as, left the front row, left single seats and so on... anyway, took the neocard...featuring shan, quek and i.. haha..






spidey!!!



♥10:28 PM..Love
can't believe that i managed to force myself to finish 3 tutorials in one day. whew... but of course, blanks here and there. haiz. must finish my stuff before going out. going to watch spidey later... although it is ex... but i got advance pocket money from my mum liao.. hehe..

i nearly agreed to patch yesterday.. he is too persuasive... but still, i managed to stand firm!! hohoho... but ya.. i worry that i can't hold on any longer and agree to him just because to stop him from asking. haizz. whatever. seems like everything in my life is in a mess.. confusion and everything.
♥10:52 AM..Love

As if you were born into a world of tears, you
always tend to look at the darker things in
life. Inside you crave attention yet push away
society, and you're a hopeless romantic. Drawn
to things like the occult and mysteries, you
spend your time daydreaming.


What Type of Soul Do You Have ?
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You should be dating a Virgo.
23 August - 22 September
This mate is known for his/her ability to work with
the helpless, to evoke strong feelings of
empathy and to keep a household strictly
organized. Though the virgin can sometimes be
scathingly critical of others, cranky and
irritable, he/she will seduce their partner
with finesse, charm and subtlety.


What Zodiac Sign Are You Attracted To?
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You're Element is Night. You're a loner who is very
creative but never show your work to anyone.
You may smile a little but sadness or
loneliness surround you and other can feel it
when they're near you. You have a dark or
unusual beauty that makes you mysterious and
you probably have a lot of secrets that you've
never told anyone. You're beauty is intriging
and unorthidox but the real thing that makes
you special is your eyes. Something in them
makes them like Diamonds in the Rough.


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♥4:44 PM..Love
this is my new blog skin. found it on blogskins.com... and changed my cursor. i preferred this one. haha.. gave up my star to zhiying. and have been starring at the comp for hours. to blog, to do my pca project. went to meet with liting twice this morning to take project stuff.. haiz. rotting at home all day. finished one tutorial but there was no satisfaction as i intend to finish 3. bleah. there is something wrong with the script. or not? got this A in front of my name and stuff like that. don't know..
♥2:27 PM..Love
today was so so unlucky... so suay... early morning, i forgot to bring my lecture notes to school and i have to go to ultra supplies to photocopy and so coincidence, the photocopy machine break down. -,- then when i got to my tutorial class, i was a few minutes late. really a few minutes.. 5 to 10 mins. and ta dah! i need to write a short letter for my tutor to explain why am i late. -_-" dotz.. i got better things to do man. then i wrote two lines for her lor. haha.. THEN.. she wanted to check our homeworks. haizz.. and ta da! i am lazy to copy the photocopied answers. haha. SO, i told her craps lah. i left it at home. hah. really unlucky. damn. NVM, i went home. and TA DAH!! my mum called me and asked me to bring my brother's birth cert to SIR building. DOTZ... it is at lavender!! and i just reached home!! really pissed.. anyway, i went down. waited for the buses and mrt. all taking their time to come. sadded. what a day man.. and finally i reached my piano lesson. haiz. anyway, met quek and pat when i was on my way to school. was waiting for that kangkong to come. saw caiyu, belinda, grace, yati and hendra. fruitful day hor.. haha..
♥7:36 PM..Love
haizz.. negative blog again.. those don't like to read negative stuff. you all can skip this post. haizz. just felt that life is getting boring. like no friends in school. everyday just go lecture and tutorial and leave liao. lots of hi and bye friends. sometimes really felt so lonely, see so many groups here and there, making so much noise and laughing.. somehow felt that, hardly i get the chance to do that except in choir. choir choir choir... now we got quantity, we need quality.. jia yoU!... and my studies are getting out of hand.. worse and worse... many many things i don't know.. must start reading through. haizz.. anyway, all i did was to say i will.. one day i will read through but never did i get on with it..
♥11:09 PM..Love
haizz.. sadded... my friend just told me she maybe will be migrating. but it is not confirm yet. just suggested by her brother. anyway, when she told me that, i was shocked. i can't take this type of news. somehow i feel that those close to me will leave me one day eventually. i mean, ya, of course, people will die and everything. but this is different. different in the sense that we will part earlier than when we suppose to.

like san, she went to canada to further her studies. haiz. then jeff told me before maybe he will be joining his bro in america to study. haizz. get what i mean? everyone is leaving. ya, i agreed that sg education system sux, but, my friends are here and i can't bare to leave them. seriously speaking, i don't know how outside world looks like, as i didn't even been on an areoplane before, maybe overseas is really that wonderful? but i think i am not that independent to be abled to manage myself out there. and i am so used to the life in sg.. so you see, i am not one who loves changes. i don't like adjustments.

really hate close friends to leave me. i will feel so lost. and it also mean that no one to shop with or talk to. so be it guys, shock me with anything except these issues...

and TC reminded me of my mum's prob. my mum told me last week she felt pain again. but she still don't want go for an op. haizz.. andd my dad, really don't know what to say. bastard and bastard remined me of the chinese meaning of the words, ye zhong sounds nicer right? my impression of him can never change. he just LOVES to piss me off. i know you can't read english, i can help you. but if you wanna ask me, ask properly and be more polite and not just shoot me like that. i rarely come home early, choir come home you all sleep liao. not that i didn't call home and told you all i will be home late. you just accused me of not telling you about the letters. please lor, at home got my brothers, can't you ask them? weird.... things are getting weirder.

♥11:20 PM..Love
i am super tired... had been rushing for the whole day. do project in the morning and after school do project again.. pprojects and projects.. and tomorrow i have to go school early for project again... ZZzzZ.... today choir audition of the new members. and saw a guy that looks like him... at certain angle, yes... same style.. and reminded me of him in the company again.. sadded... go everywhere also must have something to remind me of him... i haven't forget him though.. although attending lessons help alot.. haha.. too busy to think. but sometimes, at somewhere, i can get really moody because of this.. sianzz.. wanna blog but don't know what to blog.. wanna shout but don't know how.. haha.. still prefer laughing out loud in choir. hah.
♥11:55 PM..Love
what the hell man... portugal lost.. de~~ whoever i supported for this euro cup all came out opposite one.. sadded... england, cze republic.. i am just not fated with euro cup. whatever.
♥11:02 AM..Love
yesterday celebrated my younger bro's bday. he got a nike tee and adidas cap from my elder bro and sher. that cap will be mine... thoughts of buying a cap did come to my mine. haha.. gotta use it. and i am seriously broke... broke until i don't know how to survive this week. just hope to get my claims back quickly.. but haizz.. it will take weeks. watched the eye yesterday with my brothers and his friends. the sound effect was lousy on the tv. and finally i knew the first part of the show as i missed it in cinema. anyway, i covered my eyes at that part. hah. makes no diff.

i was stoning the whole day. the tutorials were difficult. i read throught the notes so many times le but still can't get what the tutorials were saying. and tomorrow is such a long day.. sianzz..
♥4:58 PM..Love
what happen to my yesterday entry?? anyway, typing again. yesterday was the day. concert! it was fun... didn't expect to see the audience as not many people knows how to appreciate choir concert. oppz... =X but anyway, the audiences were great! haha.. they were LOUD.. i enjoyed myself although some parts we went out of tune.. and that albert was trying to impress them by telling those profound theories.. buai tahan.. haha.. but i personally found it better than any other rehearsals... and received positive feedbacks from TC. ling and kangkong. haha.. so sad, only three of my friends turned up. haha.. but nevermind. after the concert we clear up everything and of course, there were laughters! haha.. think the only time i am able to laugh like that is only in choir.. where else can i relief stress nowadays? and i really feel happy talking to them and 'fooling' around with them.. haha.. hardly meet up my close friends now.. after this concert, everything will returned to normal.. haha.. no more of rushing those admin stuff out.. it's all OVER.. haha... thankz all the committee members to come up with all those stuff.. and of course, the members put up a great performance.. haha.. everything was great...

now i am in lab. ALONE.. haha... wait till the submission of the projects.. everybody will rush to the labs like what sia.. and it will always be crowded.. and today is my younger brother's birthday. haPpi BdAy! and my mum is so unfair, she cooked mian sian for him, but my bday didn't. so bad. gotta suan her when i get home later. hmph! going to collect the expensive cake later.. and present will be brought by my brother.. he asked me what should we get for him. i also don't know, how i know what guys like? anyway, i told him the robot my younger brother saw it at ntuc.. but my brother said, 'how old liao, don't buy toys for him lah, always let him play play play..' =X haha... we DO take care of him hor.. haha... anyway, check out the links below...

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♥9:02 AM..Love
just when i am happy, he called me, and everything crashed. damn. i am so irritated! i am having a bad sore throat and he insisted that he wanna talk to me.. what the f*** how many times in a week i must cry? what the hell man. am i so weak??? but i admit that i can't handle my emotions well. i am so the hell up angry!!!! argh.......... he keep asking chance chance chance, everytime talk on the phone, is this topic! why??? i mean is there really no other topics to talk about?? to him, to give him a chance is to accept him and be with him! what the hell man.............. please lor, i told him before le, chance is given, but you have to go achieve it. then he asked me, 'how?' please lor, if you really know a girl, definitely you know what she wants right??? all it takes is to touch my heart and thats it. but since you don't get the hint, then forget it. since you are the one who break my heart first, what for patch now? does status really matters to you soooo much?? it is not that i am not giving you a chance and is not that i am avoiding you. school is so small, wanna avoid also difficult since you always go to my school to look for me. everyday call me but we kept quiet most of the time, what for?? and friends don't always call. i wanna be your friend, but you are smarshing up this friendship. now i am sure you are not the one i am looking for.

♥12:24 AM..Love
today was fun.. went to the booth after my cds.. and we had so much fun there! haha... havent have a good laugh for so long. and at that moment, i threw everything aside, and was glad that i am in choir. haha.. we were singing there. that alwyn and cheng you were imitating ally.. haha.. acting cute.. bth... lolz... and went for dinner with them and ordered a cake from prima deli for my brother's bday. i broke again.. actually saved alot this week liao but spend it all today liao.. wahahaha.... and yeah!! portugal win!! lolz.. and actually i got alot of stuff waiting for me to do. but all forgot liao.. haha... heck lah.. wait till someone remind me to do.. lolz.. and i brought a beckham poster!! haha... it is from a drawing stall.. it looks like drew one.. but it is actually photocopied de.. and laminated.. yeah... and there is this rose, new species... is a blue rose! and the color is very very nice.... haha... yeah yeah!

happy happy happy.....


and the three of them acting cute... bth... lolz....

think that the security guard will chase us away one of these days... lolz... anyway, tomorrow is the concert!! wish me all the best....
♥10:15 PM..Love
haizz... i am very vex.... whatever shit stuff are happening. thought that everything is going to end. but one wave after one wave. so sianzz... and i kinda hurt zhen. i vent my anger, frustration, sadness everything on her.. something i didn't think of her feelings. and only when i did it i realised i was in a wrong.. sorrie zhen. haiz.. should find zell as my chu qi tong instead. what is wrong with me to vent anger on someone who is close to me? and i left her there in the mist of 'blurness'.. sadded that i treated my friend like that. so many things happened... everything is just not in the right position. i think it is time to let go. one can choose to be happy instead of being sad. of course, who will choose to be sad if there is a choice? but if i wanna be happy, i have to let go. i hope i am not implusive... i need enlightenment...
♥12:06 AM..Love