i finally understood my first lecture on legal aspects of business. FINALLY k!! the tutor is very good... but she is abit sarcastic. haizz.. expected. same style as the lecturer. anyway, my tutor going on leave and i will have a relief tutor.. just when i am getting use to this subject and just when i get a good tutor.. ZZzzZ.. anyway, today saw guan rong and jia hao. and i forgot to bring my hp to school. -,- sianzz... i very sianzz ah.... i don't know. now at home stoning and stoning. and thought of the company again. sianzz... think you all hear liao also sianzz.. anyway, bro went to watch spiderman today. so fast. will ask him how is the movie when he comes home.. haizz.. school is really no fun. please let there be miracle........................

♥7:20 PM..Love
today is a bad bad day. whatever. photocopy the tickets wrongly. everything was in a rush.. and bedok blackout. first time i was outside when such things happened. the whole interchange went dark. i think there will be shoplifting and all those stuff going along. saw the cars anyhow turn here and there and nearly bang. saw a bus driver had his atm card stuck inside the atm machine as the power went off and he didnt know what to do.realised the importance of lights and of course, lamp posts. no lamp posts how to see ah? really very dark without them. moonlight does not help much. but luckily, my block was okay. saw quek's block which is opposite me. haha.. all black. and i called to disturb my friends.. like shan, zhen, min and quek. haha... they all worried of their air con. -_-" see how rich are my friends? haha.. all use air con except me.. wahaha.. and that TC told me about being stuck in the lift.. -_-" haha.. tomorrow will have a performance in school. haizz.. not very excited. don't think we will do well. too rush le. and practically we went out of pitch during rehearsal just now but albert just let it off. bo bian. lets pray for the best.... *pray*
♥1:03 AM..Love
just had a lab tutorial.. so tired. the tutor can really go on and on. sianzz.. tutorials are really boring. but at least this tutorial can surf net. anyway, who loves tutorial?? haha...

and now waiting for legal aspects lecture. i hate this subject to core!! hmph! the bloody textbook i brought i also don't understand the contents. haiz.. they phrased the sentences into so chim one. i think even it is an open book test, i need a dictionary beside me lor. the words are really not readable. haha.. got this word? whatever, i am not good in my english.
♥12:35 PM..Love
took this in the mrt.. haha.. we are so lame.. hear no evil, see no evil, speak no evil. haha.. and took the other two neocards from yali's blog.. haha.. and have been trying to do the stupid tutorials since yesterday. don't know how to do lah. sianzz.. and tomorrow i am having two tutorials. -,- haizz... whatever.






♥10:41 AM..Love

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♥6:48 PM..Love
went to school early in the morning to buy those stupid textbooks... just buy for the sick of buying. sianzz.. and thankz my mum for giving money to buy them.. haizz.. i really don't know how to ask her for money. so, i wrote on a piece of paper.. and she reply, '$300 here. $100 buy books, $150 piano fee, $50 for two weeks pocket money..' luckily she gave me the piano fee as well.. if not i also don't know how to ask from her... haizz.. so paiseh. so old le still ask for money. haizz.. but i seriously broke le.. must save save save... haizzz... today shall be my last day of eating out.. haha.. must go home eat if possible.. has been spending quite alot the past few days. now i must really apply the foregone opportunity theory liao.. haizz.. anyway, went to tamp for lunch after buying the books and took neocards with yali and swee choo.. both of them so fair except me.. i am so dark. anyway, here is the card. buai tahan.. see the contrast between our skins? omg.. so obvious..



haiz.. i will be busy next week... damn busy... choir everyday. and i must do some reflections now and then. i must not slack.. this sem gonna be a hard hard time for me.. sianzzz....
♥3:59 PM..Love
lalala~ today happy happy happy! nothing is bothering me!! haha... went to watch around the world in 80 days.. so nice! so fantasy.... saw how beautiful the places are... and i really had a good laugh there!! haha... laughed so loud... oppz... haha...only if everyday is like that.. haha.. but never can it be..

anyway, changed my blogskin. find that this blogskin described me. haha.. but this wont be long.. cause i found one blogskin which is nicer! haaha... finally k... had a hard time searching for a nice and flawless one... haha... maybe i am too fussy... my expectations lah.. lolz..

anyway, just struck in mind what have i learnt from the moment i stepped into polytechnic. first of all, of course is independent lah... everything i have to do it myself. print lecture notes, no more spoon-feeding. experienced a whole new environment with lots of unknown faces... flexibilty of time...

second, discipline. in poly, no one was there to scold me or make me study. just myself to make a choice. whether to do or not to do. what a sad thing. make me work my mind out.. haha.. things like going for lecture or not? hah. doing revision and stuff like that need a lot of discipline. in choir too.. learnt to respect others. and how to be a good singer? haha...

friends. 'friends come and go. but only a few of them leave footprints in my heart.' haha.. familiar phrase? hate the school system as alot of people just dropped by in my life. but found a few true friends that i can joke, cry, laugh, get fed up with, heed advices from them.. and whatever lah.. haha... people like yali, sweechoo they all.. haha.. of course lah, not forgetting my choir friends.. (they are reading this!!).. haha.. hate the beginning of a new semester.. and have to fear that i am not in the same class as any of them.. haiz..

but of course, got things that i have not learn... like family.. hahaha... will hate my dad as usual. nothing gotta change my opinion of him. too bad. i can write an essay on him.. hhaha.. whatever.




♥12:53 AM..Love
2.50am and i am still awake.. sianzz.. watching naruto just now.. finally catch up to 85 liao.. haha.. thankz TC for helping me to burn hor.. hehe... anyway, watching soccer now... so fast england score one goal liao... and owen score it one... just when my bro was saying, 'so far never see owen get one goal..' then goal liao.. -_-" see beckham still so shuai.. hee... prefer this botak hairstyle than his long hair... but seriously, he is not improving.. haizz.. disappointed.. and my bro was down here nagging and nagging about him.. DOTZ...

anyway, get advices from my friends just now. talked to ling about the past. finally have the chance to talk to her in msn. my mind is set. i know what should i do. just whether i have the determination or not... haizz.. sianzz....
♥2:50 AM..Love
back home from choir... so many stuff to do. i just love choir. i love singing. lalalala... haha... anyway, today i went for my first cds lesson. as usual, it is something like OB and creative writing. participate!! haha.... i am too sianzz to think of how am i going to pass each day without being bored. tomorrow going to watch around the world in 80 days. heard that it is a comedy. good. i need a good laugh... hahahaha..... whatever. crazy..
♥11:18 PM..Love
i am stoning and stoning... got this word? i also don't know.. i very sianzz... and guess what? i actually went to help shan do her blog... haizz... and when i talked to her on the phone, i know i sounded ridiculous,(sorie shan)i actually went shouting and questioning her where has she been and blah blah blah.. and she was so fierce and guess what? i cried. hahaha. this is how i cry ah? i also don't know whether is it crying. tears just went down my cheek. whatever. i also don't know what happen. mood swing bah. felt irritated, frustrated and very fed up. and i must thankz my younger brother for being my punching bag. i kept scolding him. went black face once i got home. don't know why i feel this way. i just hate everyday. wanna talk to friends in msn about it, but i just don't know how to start off with it as i didn't even know what happened and i don't know who should i talk to. haizz.. sianz sianz sianzz... what should i do? i gotta play my piano the whole morning tomorrow. i miss my piano. just didn't have enough of it.... i don't wanna go school.. although i wanna be with my friends.. but school is not the venue i wan... too many familiar faces around. just too many. seems like my whole secondary school is in poly.. everywhere...... just wanna slack the whole day. don't wanna hate anyone. haha. what am i talking about... it just seems so difficult to live on... got so many questions in mind but i don't know how to answer them. just brain wash me please....
♥9:29 PM..Love
haizz.. third day of sch and i already sick of it.. haizz....what the hell man. what legal aspects of business.. is totally law and i don't understand!! argh... alot of stuff i don't understand. ok, i should say ALL.... haizz... and those stupid notes and textbooks are so expensive!! haizz... and today i saw him... he is still the same. and yali and swee choo saw him too... wonder what is their opinion about him.. hah.... anyway, sch sux.
♥6:04 PM..Love
right now, at this moment, my life is in a mess now... was writing zhen's letter just now and found that so many things have happened within these few weeks. i read through what i had written. felt so sad and depressed. what have i achieve in this holiday? practically nothing. love, friends, money.. none of the above have i achieve....

the days when i was working in the company returned. missed those days. sianzz...

what exactly is life? shall ask everyone this question. haha. i don't know. i only know life sucks.. wahahaha... great answer... whatever.

♥1:47 AM..Love
just saw my time table. it just sucks. this semester is a torture....
♥11:46 AM..Love
sianzz.. my tagboard i cant tag.
sianzz.. will be staying at home for one whole day to please my mum.
sianzz.. tomorrow is father's day. now i remembered. hah.
sianzz.. later must bao dumplings.
sianzz.. sch reopens in one day time.

life is so sianzz... yesterday went library with shan to study. of course i am not the one studying. i was reading a chinese storybook and kept laughing down there. the plot is so funny! haha.. this is the first time i am determined to finish reading the storybook. thumbs up!!
♥10:53 AM..Love
read ally's blog.. ya... school is starting. after 1.5 months.. i have lost the interest in studying. what the heck am i talking?? haizz... i must hang in there for another two years. just study for the sick of study although i prefer studying than working...

i really couldn't concentrate in the lecture today. i am just not ready to go back to school. and with the fear that i will meet him in school, i don't wanna go school... what for when everything is such a dragged... anyway, i have to learn to let go certain things in life. nothing is perfect. can't expect everyone to think and do as i did. everyone just have their own ways of handling situations.

chatting with TC in msn and touched on the topic NDP. haizz... really missed the days when damai choir was practicing for NDP. i had so much fun. everyday, we put in extra effort and practice in school. until everyone know their parts and combine with the chorography. then went on having rehearsals every weekend at SAF military camp and to NDP.

on the way, we had learnt so much. so much in bonding and about each other. when we were waiting for our item, we were eating tibits that were provided, chatting and singing. a brunch of siao cha bos laughing and blasting the waiting room.

really enjoyed myself so much. kinda once in a life time experience. memories... pleasant memories please come to my mind... kinda sick of life again. sianzz

♥11:31 PM..Love
don't understand anything during the lecture. wasted my 5 hours there.just wanna sleep sleep sleep........
♥7:01 PM..Love
i admit that i am a lousy alto. wondering whether my learning attitude is wrong or what. maybe i should not care so much. why put in so much effort? i shall not bother anymore. or maybe i expected too much? whatever.
♥7:37 PM..Love
ok.. i am back from 85 market. super tired but too full to sleep!! argh.... can you imagine i need to wait for an hour for the minced pork noodles takeaway?? so i brought oysters agg and fried kway teow for my two hungry brothers... and my younger brother asked me to cook for him another bowl of noodles.... -_-"" really can eat sia...

just now he called me to ask me to give him a chance again.. should i? i dunno.. i asked him don't force me... shan, zhen they all sure won't approve one.. can understand lah.. he didn't treat me well last time.. well, nevermind, just leave it. kinda weird that after one gone another one appeared... are they friends or something?? whatever... i am not pretty and don't have a great personality. so guys, shoo~~ haha...

oh yah!! just brought a handphone keychain... naruto one!! hehe... actually wanna buy sasuke but brother said that naruto is cuter... lolz.. brought alot of cute cute stuff when i went out with lee wei, bro and sher that day.. haha... come to think of it, being the 'lightbulb' is also not that bad lah... lolz.. quite fun wor...

today went out with yali to orchard to shop shop... firstly, we went to giordano to buy another pair of jeans... tried alot of times of the dark one but i still look disgusting in it... and we went to marche... the food.. ok lah... but i don't really like resturant in the market. so ma fan... must look after the belongings at the same time and so heavy to carry the food.. but the deserts are delicious! haha.. although i only tried one mango pudding... hehe... can't imagine that i salad can be sold at 11 bucks... DOTZ... so expensive...

then we went to converse. we started to get tired already.. our legs are so tired... haha... then we went to the 7-11 to buy drinks... what the hell man... the cashier had attitude problem sia... work until so fed up then don't work lah.. like venting anger on us.. so fed up. straight away in his face i said i don't wanna buy liao ah... kena sai... i don't owe him a living and he don't owe me a living. this is the way to treat people now. should complain about him.. but forgot to see name tag!! haha... no customer service at all.. hmph...

then we went to taka to shop shop.. and i brought a pierre cardin wallet.. the wallet is nice.. but it is abit too small... bo bian.. $29.00, what you expect?? haha... think so long then buy one leh... i like the material very much.. but i kinda scared to use it.. lolz.. cause it is PIERRE CARDIN.. lolz... scared will scratch it or what lah... haha... and because of the wallet, i have eliminated some items from my shopping list.. sob sob.. but ok lah... those are my wants not needs...

then we went to tangs.. and the things are so expensive. tangs hasn't disappoint me since i was young. haha.. always think that tangs is a place for tai tai one.. haha... although the brand never hear before, but the price can go up to $200 plus! siao de...

then went to far east.. haha.. by then we were already half dead. we kept aiming for two things, bag and skirt. but all cannot make it sia... and we end up leaving far east without anything.. hah.

and that yali brought so many tees from espirit... bth... but quite nice lah.. anyway, i kept within my budget today.. so happy!! hehe.... but my mum is not happy.. kena nagged and scolded by her when i went out at night to 85 market just now. and my brother also told me to stay at home at night to stop her from nagging... sianzz... not everytime went out at night one lor.. just these two days and she not happy liao.. siao... is not that i just ran out like that one lor. i did all the chores before i told her that i am going out. and my brother said that she said i didnt tell her where i going. BULLSHIT... i DID tell her.. and i DID say out LOUD LOUD k... haizz.. nowadays finding fault with me liao.. sianzz.. so now, i will go home early for one week to shut her up.. lolz... so the nonsense.. can't stand her sometimes.. lolz... nevermind... hah.


♥12:55 AM..Love
Within each of us is a loving,
magical, powerful being...
a Real Self.

Music, friend that it is,
cocoons us from our worries,
enabling that hidden self
to emerge.

------------------

Dreams are...
Illustrations from the book
Your soul is writing
About you.
♥9:17 AM..Love
yeah... going out with my bro and sher again.. haha... have been enjoying life.. will be busy after mon.. performances are coming... so many things.. school starting! haha.. sound so excited... anyway, yesterday went to fisherman.. fun! reached home around 3am and my mum kept calling... ZZzzZ.. but she didn't scold.. heng ah... must guai guai these few days liao.. haha... gtg le! yeaah!! haha...
♥1:42 PM..Love
came back from piano lesson... yeah... i am going to change a new practical book! haha... and i brought three gio tees... all are sales items... haizz... can see my money flowing very fast sia.. left pink and yellow didn't buy.. haha.. i am crazy... anyway, know what? i have to spend $200 to be a member!! oh man... it has increased another $50.. sianzz... never gonna reached my goal... lolz...

called my bro just now.. he failed his driving exam.. haizz... actually its ok to fail the first time right? the instructors all so fierce one.. i think i will not go and take practical.. haha... can see that he is disappointed. he had put in lots of effort in it leh... nevermind, shall console him when he come home.. eh.. think better don't mention in front of him again... later he sad sia...

sianzzz ah....... so bored... no show somemore... wanna blog more but don't know what to blog... sianzz....

♥8:17 PM..Love
this entry may be boring to some of you.. just wanna blog down what happened...

just came back from camp... it was fun. but muscles ache ah... knew quite alot of people from different art groups and finally got the chance to talk to shadon. so long never talk to him le. he still loves acting.

learnt quite alot from the camp. bonding, teamwork, leadership... we went through various workshops, tried things that i have never try before. we did some modern dancing, came up with some creative movements. we also attend percussion workshop. knew so much about percussion.. and we went to esplanade to see jazz performance. the performers were very skillful! and we did have some free time wandering outside school. didn't know everyone can be so discipline and responsible. andthe SDOs brief us so much on the administration stuff until i was so blurred...

we also went through drama workshop. acting, and through some sort of imaginations, it made me aware of the surroundings instead of feeling what i feel about myself all the times. and we also went through some block printings... we carved some designs on the wood and stamped it on a cloth... it was so interesting!

didn't know we will have so much fun as we were dragged there on the first day.. but slowly, we were used to each other's art group. and when all the art groups were together, we sang, and chatted together, playing guitar, although i was the listener.. knew people that i may never even know...

but, somehow, i felt so tired. not in physical wise only. i can't sing well... we have to put up a presentation and we decided to sing a song to present. but somehow, i felt that i am dragging everyone down. in the sense that, almost all the songs we wanna sing, i got a certain part that i went out of pitch and we could not continue with the piece...

aanyway, we slept at the studio... have a great time playing the piano and slept in air con room.. cool? camping like not camping hor... and didn't know that TP's changing room was so clean and there was heater! thought like swimming pool like that sia...

just saw beck in a new pepsi commercial.. so shuai... but i still don't like his hair... haizz..
♥7:16 PM..Love
yeah!! i gonna complete my wish list liao... hehe... soon soon soon.... i have finally got my pay!! but i have to pay off my debts before i can start spending... haizz... i have brought my adidas jersey!! hehe.... currently, it is my favorite piece in my wardrobe. nothing must happen to it!! haha... so happy..... and i have watched harry potter.. not very nice.. no climax.. haha... but overall, ok lah...

and today camp was quite fun... learnt alot of things from there. no leadership skills until got abit liao ah... haha...but what i learnt most was teamwork. and can say that my group members are fantastic!! haha... at first we were dragged there... but slowly, we mixed well and enjoyed it... but i was exhausted... hope tomorrow will be better... but don't think have any outdoor activities liao... full of workshops... and we are gonna stay overnight in school and it shall be my first time there!! haha... -_-"
♥12:16 AM..Love
no more cheese cake liao... need to postpone it... kinda disappointed. but nvm lah.. can have it some other day....
♥12:41 AM..Love
Dear friend,

Please spend 1 minute to read this, it's very meaningful.

When the bus come, you look at it and you said to yourself, "eeee... so full...cannot sit down one". So you said to yourself, "I'll wait for the next one." so you let the bus go and waited for the second bus.

Then the second bus came, you looked at it and you said, "eeee...this bus so old...surely very uncomfortable one." So you let the bus go and decided to wait for the next bus.

After a while, another bus came. It's not crowded and not old but you said, "eeee... no air-con one...and the weather is so warm, better wait for the next one." So again you let the bus go and decided to wait for the next bus.

Then the sky started to get dark as it is getting late.

You panicked and jump on to the next on coming bus. It is not until much later that you found out that you had boarded on to the wrong bus! So you wasted your time and money waiting for what you want!

Even if an aircon bus came, can you ensure that the aircon bus won't break down or will the aircon be too cold for you?

So people...(mostly girls but guys too!) want to make sure that what you want is not wrong. But it wouldn't hurt to give other people a chance, right? If you found that the "bus" doesn't suit, you just press the red button and get off the bus!

But wait...I am sure all of you have this experienced before. You saw a bus is coming (the bus you want of course) you flagged it and the driver acted blur by pretending not seeing you and zoomed pass you!

The bottom line of being loved is like waiting for a bus and whether you want to get on the bus and give the bus a chance depends totally on you and walking alone is just like being out of love.

If you love someone set him/her free. If he/she comes back to you, you know they're yours. If they don't then it was never meant to be.

Remember to always say what you mean.
If you love someone, tell. Don't be afraid to express yourself.

Reach out and tell someone what they mean to you. Because when you decide that it is the right time, it might be too late.

Seize the day.

Never have regrets.

And most importantly, stay close to your friends and family, for they have helped make you the person that you are today.

Pass this along to your friends. It could make a difference.

The difference between doing all that you can or having regrets which may stay with you forever.

Friendship is never an accident. It is always the result of high intentions, sincere effort, intelligent direction and skillful execution. It represents the wise choice of many alternatives.

And remember.... Keep Smiling....coz... "Of All Things You Wear, Your Smile Is As love returns to me, As I return to you, As love returns to us.

I guess this is really wondeful and make a lot of sense.

Happy Reading


♥8:50 PM..Love
omg.. yesterday match was 6-1... never did i know england can score so many goals.. haha...

i was slacking the whole day. haha... too tired to do anything. anyway, tried to cook the califlowers that my mum asked me to. nearly got it burnt. haha.. it's still edible. my brother didn't know it was me who cook it.. lalala.. i passed. lolz...

yeah! tomorrow gotta watch harry potter with my younger brother.. haha... he wanna watch it so we intend to catch the first show early in the morning... and shall go to lee wei's house with my bro and sher to bake cheese cake... haha... yes! cheese cake~~ yummy!! haha.. shall enjoy my life to the fullest before i go to camp on tues... hehe...

argh! my dad is so noisy!! keep complaining!! argh!! irritating.....
♥8:23 PM..Love
Went to PC show today... Yes, again... Ha... And this time, there were so many people! And there were so many perverts... those uncles hor.. really don't know how to describe them...

actually wanna go metro warehouse sales also. but pat and i found that there will definitely be alot of people one.. so, we went to Simei and visited our supervisor's shop. and i finally found the adidas jersey!! haha... yes... wait for me! i am gotta get ya.... haha.... and i am so happy to know that my pay is coming in on the 8th!! haha... i really need it.. my bank only left $1 something... i am serious.. those who wanna rob me can go ahead... haha... really broke... really very difficult to go out without any money... so tempting... argh....

but can't find time to shop. shit man.. gonna go for the arts induction camp on tues to thurs... but nvm, booked yali on the 14th liao... lalala... haha.... going to my bro's friend house to bake cheesecake on monday!! yum yum.. haha... hope they never bluff me lah... lolz... quick.. pay please come.. i am waiting... lolz...
♥9:09 PM..Love
went to PS today. forgot to bring my hp out... and i went shopping alone today. actually didn't intend to shop one as i went to teochew building. i went shop shop at carrfour.. haha... i didn't dare to see clothes... no money to buy... where is my pay... i am dying to shop... haha... anyway, brought a big fat chicken from carrfour.. very hardworking ok.. brought all the way from plaza singapura to bedok k... haha... then still buy tons of sushi, the wasabi damn nice lor!! it is better than the edo sushi one.. haha... shiok ah!! then still got brought strawberry, cream puffs and green tea!! hehe...

then i reached home and put down the stuff and went out again to find my brother and sher at Simei.. and guess what? this time i forgot to bring my wallet. but i ran home to take it lah.. don't have wallet i will die one.. lolz... went starbucks to chat chat. and ate trisuma something one... dunno wat name but intro by my bro... it is very nice!! haha.. his treat!! lolz... then they went to metro sales at expo while i went back to bedok for my piano lesson... and i brought chestnuts home!! lalala... food...

after that went home for dinner.. guess what? it is KFC! haha... my mum ordered it as my bro and sher had just reached home... haha... extra crispy! yum yum! but i didn't dare to eat too much.. must watch diet also mah.. hehe... and guess my bro's gf (sher) had a feast here.. haha... still got durians somemore... going to get the adidas jersey next week!! but alot of places had no stock for it already.. sianzzz... must go hunt for it le...

just found out i had so many things to do next week. great!! better than staying at home!! haha... anyway, all the best to those going for the singapore idol audition tomorrow!! haha.. wonder that min going or not sia... haha..
♥10:54 PM..Love
yesterday i went to the PC show and saw mavis. saw a few cute guys at the hp booth... wonder why they hire so many chio bus and shuai ges.. haha... you can see girls wearing only a few pieces... might as well they don't wear.. hahaha...

went back to school for choir and saw chen yang.. only a few turned up for choir. phoebe and vivien had expected it as there was a change in schedule.. haha... but ok lah, I like it when albert is teaching a small group. it is easier to teach and makes me listen more.

and we had a surprise for vivien. haha.. we gave her a bouquet of sunflowers! haha... her face turned red k...

went to 85 market with luo bing, pat and kevin after choir yesterday. andd we walked to interchange after that. and I felt like ddrinking, so pat, kevin and I went to the 7-11 to buy heinken and long island. and it was so funny! the cashier was not at least convince that I am 18 years old even after I show him my IC k!! anyway, true lah, my IC is not 'big' enough to show it as I am not even a month old after my bday... lalala... And that cashier gave me a weird face and look at his watch.. Dots......

nvm.. then we went to the void deck for the drinking session... And obviously I am the only one drinking.. haha... And I wasn't drunk.. this is not the main point. I have sort out my thoughts. after yesterday, I shall not grief for him. I will get used to the things that reminded me about him. the lucky thing is I didn't carry on with the complicated relationship..

I shall stop drinking for awhile...don't want to get addicted. or rather I should say, don't everything also turn to alcohol.. haha...

felt like changing my blogskin.. but cant find nice ones.. sianzz...




♥8:19 AM..Love
read mavis's blog... she is also working in an all male environment.. and it reminded me of him again... again and again....

i miss him terribly... it's a torture... what can i do? i had stared blankly for a day.. i had stopped contacting with him... and it is just a day and i can't take it anymore.. why am i so weak??? argh... i hate myself... when will all these end?? someone please shoot me dead...

*thinking of you every moment, every second.. where are you....*
♥8:59 PM..Love
i saw yvonne aka mummy just now. she is getting prettier each day. glad to know that she is fine..

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i cried while reading yali's blog.. partly is because of the entry but also, i am feeling so sad and wanna cover up by saying that it is because of her entry. what am i talking?? i also don't know how to explain. but i know, i have to give up.it is getting out of hand. it can't be dragged. i know what he wants from me but he already got a girlfriend. what to do? i just have to let him go... "miss him, but let go.." sigh.. what a phrase...

i don't wanna be accused by people that i am snatching other people's boyfriend. and of course, i don't want a boyfriend who is two-timing me. and pat is right. before i really commit into it, i have to stop here before it is too late. i must face the reality. we are impossible. that are too many barriers between us.. too many... i don't want that when i go out with him, i have to fear that i will see familiar faces around me.

i thanked him for everything. he will always be in my mind. he will forever be remembered. i will miss you... goodbye. doubt that we will meet again...

i am feeling terrible, terrible, terrible... but i must prove that i am strong. i will still carry on with life. please, everyone, please don't ask me what happened... just leave me as it is.

* wo bu zai hu tian chang di jiu. zi zai hu chen jing yong you..*
♥1:15 AM..Love