i wanna shop shop shop till i drop.. i am so sianzz at home. watching tv, sleeping, do chores the whole morning. i am just so tired. how i wish i have got my pay. wanna buy so many things with so little money. but i will never shop during weekends. i will go mad by doing so.. everywhere are queues.. even fitting rooms... scary.... quick... pay please come....
♥2:18 PM..Love
went to centrepoint to find mummy. she is still the same. and i am glad to see her like that. she is strong. i shall be like her... didn't spend more time with cheryl and eileen. but i am glad that i met up with them. like ages since i last saw them. wanna talk to them but i didn't know where and what to start with. hah.

guess i sounded disgusting and despo in my entry that day. don't know what happen. i am just crazy.


found this online... the whole family.. cool!

nothing to blog anymore... sianz sianz sianz...
♥7:09 PM..Love
three cheers for fantasia. she won. enough said.
♥11:49 PM..Love
what happen to fantasia? she didn't sing like how she used to sing. haizz.. and when the hell did diana degarmo become so powerful in her singing??? but no matter how well she sings, i will never support her. just felt that to be an idol, one has to be humble and able to control your ugly side. that is why, i have chose fantasia. she did well in that sense. please win fantasia... haizz.. what is happening...
♥11:47 PM..Love
work went smoothly... except meeting some perverts. sucks man.. i am so disgusted. they can stare at me for so long. well done huh.. and they really know how to act blur when i stare back at them. and i am not only the one who said this k. pat also got it liao. and we are gonna embarrass them if they do this again. damn...

other than that. everything was great. mixed well with my collegues and i had fun. really hate to quit. and something was stopping me from quitting. i thought i can handle it well. but i can't. i have to surrender. what am i suppose to do? it is a torture. but i really treasure what i have now. and how i wish time will stop. haizz...

and on top of that, i just know my class. yali, caiyu, swee choo and i were all in different class.. i am gonna have a taste of all strangers again. nah, it is not strangers, just that we are not close friends thats all... and the worst is, i got a cds that i thought that i will never have the chance to get it. haiz. sianzz.. i am so sick of my timetable. see le also sad. somehow has this bad feelings that it will be a tough year ahead. sianzzz... hope the four of us will not forget each others lor.. and of course, if time permits, i will still go chiong movies with yali.. haha... doubt i will find another close friend in poly anymore.. and i also don't wish to... sick of making new friends.... haiz.. what should i do... i really not prepare for all these... damn confused now.. i can't take it back anymore...

and i saw yali's blog.. thanks ah yali, for the beck pic... his tattoo is really ugly.. too big le.. and he put it at an awkward place.. haiz...


♥10:01 PM..Love

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i am so sianzz. sianz until i go do some quiz... weird quizzes indeed. did it just for fun.. M sent me another sms to ask me reply him. but i didn't. just wanna get away from everything. he is driving me crazy. doesn't he know how i am feeling at this moment?? can say it has been 6 months since i last saw him. he still remember me.. shouldd i say he iss devoted or is he just plain silly? i keep telling my friends when the time comes, don't run away from it. but why am i running?? just what the hell am i thinking?



♥12:13 PM..Love
ok, today working is quite smooth... too smooth until it became so bored. no one was there except the three new staff including me. the boss was not here to find trouble.. whew.... i was so bored.. and was falling asleep. kept sms-ing to keep me awake. sianzz... and i reached home so early. didn't go out to have fun. no one was available and i didn't know where to go. so, i went to ntuc to buy some tibits and magazines home to have a feast... but in the end, i fell asleep. haizz.. sianzz.. and drank a bottle of bacardi breezer. alcoholic drinks are expensive. just a few slip and ta da! finished liao.. not worth it.. haha.. but once in awhile is good, and of course lah! drink too much will get into trouble lah.. haha. ok, shan will not agree with me. hah!

and yes! i am looking forward to monday! haha.. cos i already found something that motivates me to go work. haha. ok, shall not elaborate.

M sms me to ask me whether i am free... hah! i am right. asking to go out.. but too bad. i am working.. i have no time for friends where got time for him. and my dad told me he went to bet on horseS!! and telling me no money! damn. for what tell me? i rather die than give him money. i shoot him back until he got nothing to say! totally so pissed off! thought that at least there is something i like about him but too bad, can't find anything. smokes, drink, gamble and everything! what is the point of living?

today is so so so boring.... what a day... and in case i am not here tomorrow, haPpY bDaE tO hUiwEi and MaV|s!!!! eNjOy! ^_^

♥8:05 PM..Love
haizz.. what a sad sad day.. i was so moody when working and was so agitated when the phone kept ranging. and i think they know that i am having mood swing. everyone don't dare to come near me.. but ok, after ahile i am fine.. something is not right. i am confused but i try to be normal. haha.. what the hell am i saying? haha.. nvm.

and tomorrow will be a boring day. everyone i know will be having their off day tomororw. sianzzz..... i just pray hard that the boss will not be there tomorrow... *pray*


♥7:20 PM..Love
my job has been extended from another week to two weeks. is it a good news? haha. but it is definitely better that i rot at home and get all the naggings from my mum.

haizzz... just read yali's blog. now i am wondering, how should i behave like an 18years old lady?? haiz. think everything still haven't change. i am still the same. but maybe the surrounding and other people have changed? hah. i don't know.

and i just read shan's blog. what the f***! got people scolding her class! kaozz.. this is not the first time liao. i tried tagging in her tagboard but it isn't working! so i shall comment here! this person uses shan's econs teacher name to tag!!!!! HUM JI ah!!! why don't say out real name! scare people know then don't tag lah! and anyway, this maybe a public blog, but outsiders please shut your mouth if you don't like the blog! 'you just direct your mouse to the top right hand corner of your screen... see the little red cross there? Heh!' hahaha.. quoted this from yali's blog..... lolz.. totally pissed!!!!
♥11:45 PM..Love
omg... can't imagine that i have stared at the comp for more than 10 hrs liao.. blind... today got choir, but i couldn't go as my boss wanna something to be done by tomorrow morning and which is impossible. my supervisor and manager got scolding from him today. and i can sense that he is going to scold me soon... nearly scold me liao.. sianzz.. just missed a step. haizz.. how ah.. scold me i sure cry de.. haha... jialat... very stressed.. when he was scolding i was trembling.. haizz.. and i had to stay back to 10.15pm to rush the stuff he wants. and i was SO LUCKY to forget to bring my hp to work!! haizz... one of my bad days. sianzz...

haizz.. can see my supervisor cannot take up the boss's nonsense liao... we have a 'heart to heart' talk when working OT.. haha.. i really wonder how he tahan the boss.. the boss is crazy. SHOUT at people and not explaining things and not respecting!! haizz.. i was scared stiff before he scolded me. i broke down a little after the boss left. felt so stress up. i am so afraid that i did the wrong thing and make my supervisor take up the mess. and tomorrow the boss is coming to sopt check early in the morning!! how am going to take it i don't know. but for what i know, my 'working permit' has been extend to another week. sorry to those who i have promised to go out with next week. paiseh...

p/s: yali, zhen and cheryl, sms me when you all wanna go out k.. but next week weekdays is confirmed cannot le.. so sorry...
♥11:33 PM..Love
i am sooooOOO super sianz.... tomorrow have to work again... one day of rest is just too short for me sia.. not enough... it just seems like today i am working like that.. lolz.. ok, but not as tired as working as a sales promoter... and suddenly i got so many things to do. so funny sia. when i am so free at home, i didnt think of going out and do what i wanna do. but now leh, dying to go out. dying to shop. dying to watch movie. siao de.. lolz.. but nvm. i think of money i happy liao.. hahaha... gonna work OT to earn money.. one week is fast..
♥12:01 AM..Love
omg... he had cut his hair... and i still prefer his jap hair... gotta see him in his new hair cut when sch reopen.. haizz.. anyway, glad that he is doing well with his gf. he is a good bf.



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♥1:23 AM..Love
so tired..... and when i reached home, i was like sleeping for hrs.... now just woke up.. my eyes are swollen. but this job is good. it is easy money. and although the surrounding are all guys, but they won't disturb me. they are quite friendly. i think they also find me uncomfortable bah.. but ok lah. although i heard alot of vulgar language. =X

clay aiken!! i am going crazy over him these few days... lolz... and i saw his audition pics!! is omg... what a big different from now. he looked nut last time. but now is sooooo handsome!!

shuai.... o_O haha..








♥12:25 AM..Love
haizz.. kena scolding from brother.. he saw my stupid result slip. and thankz TP for sending me TWO copies lor! my mum thought i gotta a award or something. haizz.. so throw face!! and my brother was nagging and nagging. haizz.. how come he can get to see my result slip ah?? haizz.. sianzz... anyway, i deserved a scolding. he was telling me too many Cs liao.. next time cannot get a diploma of merit and what lah. haizz... i know... but i can't help it what... i DID study . and this is not what i expected either lor... haizz.. nvm, he can wake me up better. haizz.. hope i will do well next year!! but doubt lah. next year will be a tough year. everything will be so pack... haizz... sianzz.. what a day man....
♥11:17 PM..Love
i am so tired, exhausted, sleepy blah, blah, blah.. whatever words that describe all. today is the second day of work and i am feeling kinda bored liao. everyday staring at the comp, typing the data, nobody to talk to you, and you have to stare at the comp for at least 8 hrs!! omg... my eyes are gotta be blind real soon... haizz... really, i am not cut out to be an office girl. it is not working. although it is easy money. but i will be bored to death... and wearing of those formal clothes.. haizz.. although it looks professional... but it can only be short term. don't have so many clothes to go around. i am wondering how am i going to survive when i go out to work in future... haizz... i must tahan.. i am sure i can do it... haiz.. haha.. just kidding myself. nvm...

sick of life.. think this is not the first time i am saying it ya? haiz.. i am aiming nowhere. 18 years old and i don't feel any different. is it good or bad? and today, i saw daniel and his legs are getting worse.. i was shocked when he told me what is he suffering from. i have seen how his muscles deteriorate from the day he steps into choir. he was walking fine then. but now, he tripped easily. will his conditions get worse? i mean what if one day he will not be able to come to school? i mean WHAT IF... argh.... don't wanna think about it. it is so scary.. can't digest the reality. just find life short. never know what will happen next ya? and i kinda lose my temper in choir just now. i am so tired. and just because of tired. what a reason. haizz.. why daniel is not angry to get this illness? he is so clever and has such a bright future. just find it so unfair. alright, maybe it is not that serious, but who knows??

and american idol is getting so boring. latoya is out. it is sooo unfair!! everything is not right. whatever....

clay aiken is really good. GOOD GOOD GOOD... i shall make him my idol. listen to his songs or just by looking at him, i am happy. felt like buying his cd.. it is really nice.. this american idol 3 can't compare with him. noneis as good as him. he is the best. can sing so high, can sing with power and richness.

♥10:06 PM..Love
kena scolding from my mum. what the heck, spolit my mood. fine. what a great day to start it off.

p/s: ally, yr foot pic is out..
♥12:38 AM..Love
yay!! i am so the super happy k.... really enjoyed myself today.. went out with yali in the afternoon. but before that, i went to meet quek and as expected, i am correct. they brought me a pair of gio jeans!! hehe... thankz guys!! i have been longing for one!! hehe... i know it since yesterday when we went for dinner but i didn't say out because must act with you all mah.. lolz..

and went for lunch with yali at sofra, a turkish resturant. the food is not bad k.. it has got what i want!! lolz.. cheese, mutton.. lolz... delicious!! yay!! and she brought me an anklet!! lolz... thankz.. something that i don't have! lolz... and she spent alot on me.. lolz.. she treat me for lunch somemore.. lolz... thankz!! and we went shop shop and as usual, went to my fav shop giordano... haha.. it has 20% discount for those who having bday on that day!! lolz... and i brought a blouse.. and took neo card with yali.. here it goes...



and this one is our first shot, discussing how we should pose.. so it turn out to be like.. and it somehow was better than the next two shots... lolz..

haha.. so many people i have to thank! haha.. and caiyu finally appeared!! she sent me an e-card.. if not i thought she had gone missing.. haha... this girl is always on the move.. lolz...

and went for choir.. and i am surprised!! lolz... so happy!! haha.. is there another word for happy instead of happy?? lolz.. nvm.. they celebrated my bday with siew yong's.. lolz... and there were two cakes!! lolz.. and for the second time, i kena sabo by them.. lolz.. same method as what shan they all did it to me.. sob sob.. lolz.. but i am happy that so many people celebrated it with me!! i didn't expected it!! hehe... and albert was playing happy bday song by piano!! lolz... and guess what they give me??? they gave me a piano book!! with sooo many scores!! lolz.. although it is not within my range, but i can find alot of piano pieces i want in it!! lolz.. can play one hand mah.. lolz... thankz thankz and thankz!! haha...

really xie xie everyone!! hehe... and i finally know what is in love with love.. lolz.. do you all know what it is??? haha... shall let you all some other day!! maybe it is good for me huh? lolz... just kidding.. i am not that 'anyhow' lolz...

and i am going to start work in an office tomorrow.. haha.. thankz my mei (yvonne soon) for finding me this job! lolz.. and this is bday gift!! haha.. she said one lah.. lolz... but have to wear formal and wake up eary like 6? lolz.. office hours.... be it one week or so, i am just happy with it. it is data entry. i think i will love it in the short term but not long term. haha. think i am going to die in my SIP.. lolz...

really XIE XIE everyone!!! lolz... thankz!!! i am so touched to have you all as my friends k!! of course not forgetting those who wished me de lah.. especially those who called me... lolz.. it is like once in a century to hear their voice!! haha.. so happy!!!
♥11:51 PM..Love
went out celebrating my bday with zhen, shan, quek, min and zell.. met quek, zhen and zell earlier to shop. then went to meet shan and min to take neoprint.. haha.. and we tried the new machine.. the cameras are all over the place! lolz.. and we gif up the bottom camera... lozl.. we are so stressed up taking the photos. and it was like racing against the time. have to do everything so quickly! lolz.. so here come the pics!




that crazy min!! just as we are giving up on the camera that is at the bottom, he squatted down and took it!! lolz..





the pics are abit small lah.. then we went to jack's place for dinner. the atmosphere was so nice! elton john's songs were on the 'PA system'! so nice.. and i had the fire steak. it is with brandy and supposed that when the food was being served, the chef will pour the brandy on the steak and light up the fire. but the chef pour three times on the steak!! lolz.. two failures and the chef came out and lighted it for the third time! lolz.. but i am not drunk.. lolz.. quite nice lah.. but the steak was already quite well done as the chef kept lighting it.. lolz..

and then... surprise surprise!! i was shocked! totally shocked! haha... just when i was listening to a piano piece, suddenly the music was being cut and the birthday songs came!! lolz.. i was shocked lor! at first i was like listening so hard and figuring what was the song then i saw the staff coming in with the cake!! haha.. i was like.. huh?? bu hui bah... so many people are looking!! lolz.. ok, i am touched.. so nice!! what a memorable bday celebration!! so sweet of them.. the cake was chocolate mousse cake.. eh.. is it how it is supposed to be spelled?? lolz.. and that min was asking me for four numbers!! lolz... bth... anyway, here are the photos!






see what they all did to me?? sooo bad... lolz...


that min!! trying to put cream on my face but in the end i did it back to him on his hair!! hahahaa...


the four of us..


my self portrait!! haha...

and after that they were counting money.. felt so bad to let them treat! it was so ex.. thankz alot leh!! after that decided to go merlion there.. but after awhile standing there waiting for bus, we decided to go home.. abit disappointed that i have to come home so early lah... intend to stay out until late late de lah.. haiz.. but they have to reached home early.. nvm then.. lolz.. but i really enjoyed myself although i looked moody sometimes during the outing k... lolz.. thankz a million for today!! it has been a great day for me k.. lolz... haha.. i am crazy.. lolz.. nvm..

then when i reached home, my brother gave me a perfume from body shop!! hehe... the smell is quite nice!! he really know what type of smell i like ya? lolz.. thankz!! keke... so happi!! but actually.. the one he gave me when he went for holiday haven't use finish... lolz...

and so many people wishes me happy bday!! thankz alot guys!!! love you guys to bits!! hehe... muackzzz!! ^_^

♥11:30 PM..Love
OMG... blogger has changed its looks... so weird... and yesterday i almost slept the whole day.. wahahaha... but still not enough.. and when i woke up, my brother just finished cooking dinner! giving my mum a break from her daily work ya? and the dinner was nice!!! my bro is a great cook. loves to invent new food de. guys who know how to cook are disappearing but at home i have one. haha. great!! and i am surprised by what he had cooked and the time he took!! omg... faster than me! haha. he cooked sting ray, fried egg with alot of ingredients.. lolz.. vegetables and unagi! and he said the sting ray is for me as a bday present!! haha.. thankz ah. quite delicious lah.. really surprised! haha.. alright, enough of food. think you all will be dripping salivas! lolz.. below are photos taken during bbq. argh... i looked so shag in the photos. haha. didn't sleep the whole night thant's why.


siew yong, anna, luo bing and me


yanling and me


alwyn and me


during bbq-ing... realised that i was not there? haha. because i don't know how to cook! lolz..


anna, luo bing and me


kevin and me
♥8:34 AM..Love
hello! haha.. i am back from chalet.. took a bus home early in the morning. it was fun in the chalet. and as usual, the first day was great! i didn't sleep for the two night and i was super tired. nearly missed my stop when i took the bus! i really dozed off! i wonder how long i had slept in the bus.. when anna got off the bus, i was already one stop before the one i should get off!! omg...

the first night what was i doing? haha. played alot of games with the poker cards. haha. just realised i can do so much stuff with the poker cards! haha. i had learnt so many games. and my brain cells was killed by anna with all her mind games. haha. but it was interesting! haha.

and i fell down when i was cycling! haha. because i was using my hp! and my heart was so painful to see my hp dropped on the floor and there was scratches!! but luckily the LCD screen is ok... no scratches on the screen.. whew... and the credits goes to min k...

and that cheng you brought his beloved soft toys. it was so cute!! haha. one of it is pikachu and i kept playing with it.. haha. so many people brought the things they could not go without when they sleep. soft toy, pillow, blanket. haha. interesting.

omg... kept yawning from the minute i woke up. going to bed again later. .. ZzzZ.

and the second night we had bbq. the marinated chicken wings and fillets was nice! so delicious. thankz to luo bing and siew yong! not many people came for the bbq. don't know why. the respond was quite good when we announcedto the choir and they said they will come but.. haha.. nvm. the food was not enough also. haha.

the first night i was somehow drunk a little. can feel my head is spinning and i couldn't walk straight although i kept saying i could. haha. but i knew what i was doing except for the spinning of my head. i knew my limits. and the second night was bad. i didn't drink. and i was glad that i didn't. i was shocked to see so many people got drunk. and i mean real drunk. the whole room had a strong alcohol smell. i never know one can be so drunk afer drinking alcohol. and now i got the taste of it. and i was scared. i will never drink those alcohol like whisky. omg. they are killer. and it ws almost the whole house of people was drunk. they vomitted, alot of times. totally passed out. all thanks to henry's friends who brought those strong alcohol. but like what kevin said, it takes two hands to clap. if they offered the drinks to our girls, they have the right to say no. but our girls just don't know their limits. and the situation got out of hand. i was kinda scared by it. but luckily, those who are underaged didn't drink. there was a passerby who asked how my friend was feeling. my friend was vomitting for the sixth time!! omg. and daniel didn't even know he vomitted when he was sleeping. he was feeling too 'high' liao. and my bag had to go for washing as it smells of alcohol. haiz. luckily, there were people wo were awake to take of those who passed out. just imagine the beds were not enough for those who had passed out. i am not exagerating. and i will not want to see this kind of situation again. never.

ok. going off to bed again.. haha.

shall post up some of the chalet pics i took soon...
♥11:56 AM..Love
haha... not bad huh.. try it guys! you won't regret it.. lolz... i think in my life only can do it once.. haha... it is difficult! try it and you will know what i mean.


I did it in 4 seconds.
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♥4:33 PM..Love
ok, gotta blog about this guy. know steven lim?? the one who is always standing near the tangs shopping mall and asking people to let him trim their eyebrow one.. i think girls should be aware of him. this guy is disgusted. look at his webby. here 'self proclaimed hunk'!! oh my god.. and he said is chen xiao dong's lookalike!! oh my god.. it is an insult to my idol.... disgusting. yuck!!! wonder why this guy is still around. nobody shoot him dead? lolz...

♥11:20 PM..Love
Received this email just now and it was soooo true about me being a taurus.. except for the 'being tickled' haha. those who knows me should know why. haha. and it was so coincidence or did they tell each other to sms me at the same time?? haha. anyway, reject and reject. sound so cruel. but luckily i am at choir just now and i didn't think about it! thankz god....

From the email...
Taurus
Birth stone

Emerald
You like…

Yummy food, clothes, massages, nature and being tickled (gently).
You dislike…

Naff jeans, pushy people, ear-splitting music and being rushed.
You’re best at…

Creating something beautiful out of nothing - think cooking, art or gardening.

Deep down…

U need to know that people love u ‘n’ want ‘em to show it. While you’re not a show-off, u do like to be noticed and enjoy getting compliments. Secretly, you are keen to make lots of money.
Your career…

Think money, nature and beauty. Choose from banking, art, accounting, music and gardening.
Fashion

You're more concerned with comfort than looking like a supermodel. You enjoy shopping for clothes, but don't like spending too much on them. You love pretty dresses and dainty shoes are a must! Although you like to look good, you don't like your clothes to attract too much attention. You like well-cut, not-too-tight clothes best in soft, natural fabrics.
As a mate…

A lovable, loyal sort, your close friends can always count on u when the going gets tough. Stubborn beyond belief, u find it difficult to say sorry, but you’ll make an effort to patch things up. And u don’t forget birthdays.
As a girlfriend…

You need romance like a fish needs water. Good food, bear hugs ‘n’ mountains of flowers make you mushy. Loyal ‘n’ affectionate, you expect ur boyf to be faithful. If he cheats on you, he’s in serious trouble
If your boyf’s a Taurus

Make an effort to dress up for dates. These types have great style and appreciate u going to all that trouble. Don’t rush ur crush either – he likes to take his time when kissing, eating or chatting. Be patient with him or you’ll scare him off. Taurus boys are slow-moving sweeties ‘n’ he’s worth the wait.
Celebrity Taureans

Uma Thurman (29/4/70), Michelle Pfeiffer (29/4/58), David Beckham (2/5/76), Richard Blackwood (5/5/72), George Clooney (6/5/61), U2's Bono (10/5/60), Martine McCutcheon (14/5/76), Natalie Appleton (14/5/73) and Janet Jackson (16/5/66).
♥10:22 PM..Love
argh.... i am having a bad cramp... sianzz.. and tomorrow is my choir chalet! stupid aunty has to come now.. sick... maybe i wont be staying overnight tomorrow.. too troublesome.. haizz.

and just checked out the result of tonight's american idol 3. my hope was crushed once again. diana and fantasia are standing there safely. george and jasmine were in the bottom two. and we had a all female final 4! hah. george is out and there isn't anymore excitement about watching this show.
♥9:57 AM..Love
hate diana to the core... i wanted her out from american idol... but somehow, she is getting better... can't stand her arrogant face.... sick of her... *vomit*
♥9:13 PM..Love
managed to change my blog again. if these changing of blogs irritates you guys, i am sorrie..

went out with my choir friends yesterday.. actually no mood to go out de.. but bo bian.. tickets already booked.. so don't trouble my friends and i went for the choral concert at the NAFA theatre. here are some pics..


mimi, vivien, ally and me


kevin and i


and took one with my kian hong..

haha. see my stupid face there? hide my feelings real well ya? haha. after the concert didn't go supper with them. went to look for swee choo with ally and went home. i am sooo tired as i didn't sleep yesterday.

went out with yali just now. i did enjoy myself. she really made me laughed. and i am totally in luv with that gio jeans!! argh.. but it is way to ex for me to get one.. haizz.. and it was raining all day. sianzz... but my mood was much much better than yesterday.. anyway, he didn't call me yesterday when i expected him to call. haiz.. am i happy or sad? haha. i am crazy again. nvm about me... i don't think i will recover from all these 'happenings'.. haizz..
♥8:41 PM..Love
i am crazy.. i don't know what i did to my blog.. find my blog kinda messy now. it just describes my feeling... felt like crying...
♥11:00 AM..Love
i don't know whether i should be saying that i am lucky or what, to have these two guys around me.. M sms me and i ignored him as usual. and ok, lets just say that my ex is coming to tp to study.. for those who knows him, don't get a shocked. but i got a shocked when i heard this from him. i let out a scream when i was talking to him... what should i do? scared? happy? sad? i don't know. but i am definitely stressed. but somehow, it is telling me that he had changed to a better person. someone who is hardworking. someone who is willing to take up any difficulties. it is not easy to enter poly from ite.. he will be studying in school of engineering. he said he had never forget me and hope that one day i will accept him. but i make it clear that we are PURELY FRIENDS... haha... are we? i don't know. but i am sure, for the time being, yes. what will happen in the future, i don't know...

i couldn't sleep last night... i thought of the past. people always say that," let the other party loves you more than you do.." is this coming true? my resistance is coming to an end.. i had enough.
♥8:33 AM..Love
argh..... i missed the 'real beckhams' for about 45 mins! my brothers and i were watching 'spirited away', a anime vcd which my bro got it from don't know where.. got carried away when watching the vcd. it was nice! and i agreed with yali that beck's voice is a bit weird. he has such a strong i don't know what accent. haha. but alright lah, i am actually quite glad that i missed the 45 mins of the show. so much of victoria and so little of beckham!! haizz... and i felt that victoria was abit too exagerating when beck gave her a diamond ring. and i was pissed off when she changed her clothes in from of the camera!! argh!! disgusted.

and yes... they were so freaky rich that they admitted that the 'storeroom' was more like some branded stores! and guess what! beck wore mostly one time for all his shoes and after he gave them away! omg.... so many pairs of shoes..... i know he is rich lah.. but.... haizz... the beckhams somehow don't leave me a very good impression liao..

argh..... and i was SOO angry!! ok, those who loves their dad to core, please stop reading this blog now. please scram.

after having dinner with my brothers, sher and mum, my younger bro and i went to buy food for my dad. on the way, my bro told me that my dad asked for $500 from my elder bro. he said he was kinda bang the other party's car and had to compensate. and just now i didn't see any scar on his car!! i was like... what the fuck! i thought he don't recognise my bro as his son liao? he said this when he quarreled with my bro... then now, when he needed money, he came and asked from my bro! kaozz.. what kind of father is he?! he already asked from my bro $1000 before and now it is $500! and my bro just gave him like that!! omg... if is me, i will just say that I HAVE NO MONEY!! just said that my bro is too filial and don't bare to leave my dad alone. i will be able to do it. i have been tolerating with my dad's nonsense and i have did a better job than my two brothers. lets just said that i am the only one who haven't quarrel with him. he better don't test my patience. i am going to blow my top soon... REAL SOON!!

when he need us he will call us. what is this! kaozz.. alright, i admit that i was not at home yesterday when my dad asked for my bro the money. i have never been at home when my 'so called dad' came back at night. if i have a choice, i also won't wanna come home. he was sooo naggy. and he will start with.. who didn't come and pay him back the money.. then say no job... damn! i don't want to know all these! tell us for what??? i also no money give him! can't he just ask us how is our studies and all that??? i bet he sure didn't know that i am having holiday now!! i was so pissed off by him! so what if my bro has a stable income?? it doesn't mean that he doesn't need to support himself when he go uni!! what kind of father is he?? he doesn't care about our future, doesn't care about our lives, doesn't take of our daily needs! he just go and die please........ please go die NOW!!! not that i am badmouthing him! i tell you, if he does his job as a father, i will not have said all these! he just take care of himself, support himself and guess what? he still couldn't make a life out of it!!! what the fuck!! spend so much on cigarettes and beer! drink to his death!! from young until now, he is still smoking and drinking and still alive! it is so unfair!! see people dying for nations? see the one who died in the nicoll highway incident, see how great is others' daddy!! i am so fucking fed up! he was like telling me that his friends all run away when he was in trouble. and shoot him back, 'you should noe this will happen de lor..' and for the first time i shoot him back and shut him up!!! i was so fed up!!!! argh!!! $500... imagine what can my bro do with this sum of money... although it is not millions!!! i rather my bro spend the money himself than to give my dad! my bro is kind enough that even my dad quarreled with him, he still gave him some allowance when he got bonus k.. my bro can jolly well don't give him as he just don't treat my bro as his son!! can someone tell me what kind of father is this?? i see him as a burden than a loving dad! totally pissed off when i saw him! don't even feel like talking to him! and he just asked me to help him buy carpark coupon for him!! fuck!! i don't mind helping him, but he talks to me oly when he needs me? then forget it!

he better die soon!! not that he has any wealth or whatsoever left behind for us k!! just leave this world and i will be like 'thank lord for everything...' i am serious. just get out of my sight!

haizz..... i am feeling better after blogging.... so much better! and thankz shan for being such a great listener! haha.. although she was down there telling me to relac and relac... haha... *relaxing*...


♥11:40 PM..Love
rain!! haha.... so haappy that it rain because i will be rotting at home today!! haha... slept until 11am.. finally i woke up after 9am.. lolz... and my bro say he will treat us eat dinner.. from last week postpone to today. yeah! wonder he still remember or not.. nvm..

and today is beckham's bday... HAPPI BIRTHDAY!! haha... and tonight at 10pm channel 5 have a life story of beckham.. haha.. already put alarm in my hp liao.. lolz... haizz.. nothing to blog liao.. just wanna type something..haha.
♥12:13 PM..Love
today.. was slacking at home the whole morning.. then changed cheryl's blog.. eh.. hope she like it.. really difficult to get precious moments pictures.. haha.. then went parkway to watched performances. i felt that TC's band is better than the first band as the first one the songs were quite noisy.. don't know leh.. don't really like those noisy noisy music.. i cannot really digest those noisy music.. luckily the second band's music is quite sentimental.. thankz TC for delicating the songs to me hor..

after that went to eat at ajisen.. hmm.. is it the correct spelling? haha.. nvm.. actually say want go lao pasar, then this one cannot that one cannot so go ajisen.. alright lah.. shouldn't eat the volcano as i choke myself and now my throat is not feeling well again.. shall stop eating heaty food for awhile.. haha...

and went to east coast park after that. too bloated already. haha.. then sit down at coffee bean and kena suan by that zell. talk about how to celebrate my bday? haha.. too bad.. have to celebrate earlier as i have choir that day.. haha.. he sooo noisy.. so different from the first time i met him. haha... at least my impression of him change to better. haha.. he will be happy to see this. but he noisy better than quiet lah.. haha.. so crappy... lolz..

and walked home with quek. talked about some stuff again.. finally we are walking home together again. miss the talks ya? haha... if not always i walk home alone from school de.. sad rite.. haha.. shall stop blogging... dah..
♥10:23 PM..Love