i am back... tonite john stevens will be outof american idol.. expected. but i still want fantasia and diana to go~~ when will they go?? haizz... anyway, about today... gosh.. i think i am going crazy.. without this blog, i am going to be crazy... keep blogging.. one day can haf two entries.. addicted.. haizz.. but donno y, just like to blog.

anyway, today, went to lao pasar early morning. meet my choir friends at 11.00am at raffles city but many of them was late and a few didn't turn up. but its ok. i nearly couldn't wake up too. then we reached lao pasar. ate china food intro by pat's friends. something like yong tao foo.. don't really like it as it was quite hmm.. tasteless? well, maybe i don't know how to eat it but i am one who like salty and sweet stuff. even at home, i asked my mum to put more salt de. really.. i hate stuff with no taste.. and i saw a stall with prawn salad. i will try it the next i go there.. was too full to try it just now. and pat's friend treated us, then we brought something back for her. chocolate~... i am craving for chocolates now.. i didn't get to eat it today as there was choir just now. bad for my throat ya? and we were chased by so many people!! haiz.. don't know why. wherever we stand, it seems like blocking them or rather, blocking their business? at mrt station, we were told we couldn't sit on the floor. then we went to lao pasar, the cleaner chased us. then we stood outside a stall, the owner chased us away. haizz.. don't know what's wrong...

and went back to school for choir meeting for the notice board. for a while. then we were rotting away. went opposite of the school to buy bubble tea. finally know which is the shop that sells the best bubble tea there. then we went back to school and it was like so early before choir starts. then we sit down and sang. but i didn't sing, everything was bad for me today. not in the mood to sing. bad hair day. everything. but managed to hide my feelings well? ya..

and during choir, sectional was alright. haizz.. didn't get the notes right again.. haiz... gotta brush up on it... and received a sms from M. and decided not to reply again. felt so guilty for not replying him, felt guilty for ignoring him. felt guilty for everything. and today, for some reasons, felt so out in the committee. don't know why like that lah. during times when there were three people i felt so out of place. haha.. maybe i am talking rubbish. crazy. nvm, just felt that everything was not right.

watching american idol now.. wanna slap diana. *slap* gotta kill her one day. crocodile tears everywhere! what the hell.... anyway, just realised that john stevens is quite cute.
♥9:51 PM..Love
this song was sang by john stevens in american idol yesterday. this song was SOOO nice but don't know how, he managed to sing it out of pitch and nan ting... bth..

i remember this song was the one quek, san and me went crazy abt it when we were in sec 4. still asked quek to burn for me.. lolz.. it was after mr tan showed us a movie and the music was this. i forgt the movie liao as he showed uss so many movies.. haha... i think if i am not wrong is the violin one.. lolz... nvm. but this song is nice! real nice...

anyway, abt yesterday AM3 (yes.. again..) i wan everyone to out!!! everyone just not doing their best.... bth... but the first to be out, fantasia or diana.. pls go...

saw william hung mtv she bangs... no improvement and it is getting worse.. insulting ricky martin, insulting people who can sing. even a kid will sing better than him. wonder how he can change the pitch until like that. maybe i should clap for him? *clapped* well done william, you had made me detest you for a moment.

music of the heart
you'll never know what you've done for me
what your faith in me has done for my soul
and you'll never know the gift youve given me
i'll carry it with me

through the days ahead i'll think of days before
you made me hope for something better and made me reach for something more

Chorus:
You taught me to run
You taught me to fly
Helped me to free the me inside
Helped me hear the music of my heart
Helped me hear the music of my heart
You've opened my eyes, You've opened the door
To something I've never known before
And your love is the music of my heart
(music of my heart)

you were the one
always on my side(always on my side)
always standing by (always standing by)
seeing me through
you were the song that always made me sing (made me sing, made me sing)
im singin this for you (singin this for you babe)
everywhere i go i'll think of where i've been
and of the one who knew me better than anyone ever will again

Repeat Chorus

what you taught me
only your love could ever teach me
you got through when no one could reach me before
'cuz you always saw in me
all the best that i could be
it was you who set me free

Repeat Chorus

...is the music of my heart...

♥8:14 AM..Love
haizz.. my mum told me she has to go for an operation.. a major one.. what a news she has told me.. she still deciding whether she wanna go for the operation or not... she said that if she go, she had to rest for months. and everything she can't do.. what should i do now? i also dunno...zhou yi bu kan yi bu bah.. what to do...
♥6:42 PM..Love
argh! i am down with flu... *sneeze* haizz.. didn't go out then sick.. sianzz.. and my throat is not feeling well. must be the food that i ate yesterday. haizz.. tom yam+laksa= sore throat.. hahaa...

yesterday went for choir.. everyone has changed.. haha.. like what albert said, long hair, short hair, 'gone with the wind hair'.. haha... and kevin looked shocked when we passed him the present.. haha.. unexpected ya? haha... and i manage to help shan change her blog skin.. don't know whether she like it or not.. hope she does... haizz.. enough of talking.. *sneeze* going to use up a pack of tissue liao.. haha... dah..

p/s: shan, don't like tell me k.. i will change again..
♥11:26 AM..Love
haha... went swimming just now.. my mum lah.. wake me up so early! haizz.. then i can't get to sleep.. really immune to her voice. alarm clock, phone calls, others wake me up is cannot de.. haha.. so if fire jialat liao.. haha.. wonder what if my mum is not around.. haizz.. she wake me up to tell me that she cook tom yam soup, tell me to cook noodles myself and peel the prawns.. haha..*yawn* then i woke up 7 something, don't know what to do.. then go swimming! haha.. then got this uncle, don't know what he wants. he talked to me, telling me i must kick harder.. blah blah blah.. and i just nod nod and nod.. lolz.. then he say look at him when he swims.. then tell u all hor.. he also swim wrongly what.. lolz.. then he say get it? i nod again.. haha.. then talk talk talk until he finally say he gtg liao.. haha.. i was like yeah! haha.. then i finally open my mouth liao say bye bye.. lolz.. shoo~~ haha...

ate the tom yam soup.. so sour and spicy.. haha... but delicious man!! haha.. nice...

haizz.. didn't get to see my ex neighbour.. last time we two families very close de.. then they move house. long time never see him le. he is now a swimming coach at bedok swimming complex. but everytime i go there, always hope to see him but didn't get to see him de.. haizz.. nvm, next time. haha.

choir has resumed! and tonight it will be the first practice.. long time never sing le.. don't know will go out of pitch or not.. haha... and i will get to see the members again!! haha.. hao jiu bu jian le.. lolz..

and i had to get my life back! start to go meet all those i haven't see them for weeks, for months or for years.. if got lah.. lolz... cheryl and eileen hear me calling the both of you?? ring me up to make an appointment k?? haha... miss you two!! =P
♥11:10 AM..Love
haha.. i found these.. yeah!!! surprises and more surprises!! lolz... so happy!! haha... mad about sasuke again! lolz... way to go!



this one is his teacher.. kakashi..


and one more... got this from TC.. thankzz!!!

♥10:45 AM..Love
2.30am and i am still awake.. well done.. haha... not feeling abit tired. i am trying to get rid of my stupid pimples.. getting more and more.. sianzz.. now become uglier liao.. jialat.. i am going crazy about final fantasy.. lolz.. squall soo handsome... my idol liao.. sasuke had to go~ haha.. nvm.. don't think u all understand what am i mumbling about.. lolz... and i starting to like my blogskin... the background colour is nice.. ~love hina~ and now i realised that the words are in pink colour! thankz shan for reminding k.. *rolling my eyes* lolz.. haizz.. but it really matches the background.. lolz.. maybe won't change for the time being bah..

and i realised i haven't been posting any pics.. i mean not photos.. haha.. came across a few wallpapers of final fantasy.. so, to make my blog colourful, here it goes.. lolz..

Rinoa & Squall.. so chio.. so shuai.. only can appear in my fantasy..







COOL!! bth.. lolz.. see the sword??? NICE!!




♥2:22 AM..Love
yeah!! i get my fav music back!!! yeah!! haha... lalala~... so happy!! WOOooo.. hehe...
♥12:29 AM..Love
*yawn* wanna sleep until late late de.. who knows, i woke up at nine.. lolz... can't sleep any longer.. so sianzz.. and yesterday i changed my blog.. lolz... just for fun lah.. anyone knows any other music webby instead of powerweb?
♥9:38 AM..Love
yay! finished my LAST paper!! and yay! i can do the econs paper.. lolz.. as usual, this is the only paper i am confident that i can PASS!! lolz... actually hor.. i don't know whether i should be happy or sad that holidays has come. it marked the end of this semester and i felt that time really passed very quickly. and it also telling that i had to change classmates again!! haizz.. sianzz... will yali, caiyu and i be in the same class next new academic year again? i really hope so. but.. not very positive about it lah.. i don't know what i had i learnt in this semester and i just went for the exam without knowing what i had learnt! haha.. how am i going to scram through year 2? i really don't know.. lolz..

ok, after econs paper, yali, caiyu and i went to PS to eat fish and co. and i am broke! lolz.. and yali brought so many things! haha.. ok, actually is just a pair of jeans and a pair of shoes.. all from S and K.. lolz.. and we were like throwing the paper bags to each other as we were so paiseh to carry them around! lolz.. cos the paper bags were huge and with F4 on it! lolz... looks weird carrying it.. after that we went home. it is just not the day to shop as it was saturday. SO MANY PEOPLE!! bth... everywhere we go have to brake and brake! and SO MANY PEOPLE WERE SMOKING!! bth.. lungs full of smoke!

finally i can replenish my beauty sleep le!! so many pimples popping out! sianzz... i am really surprised by the way i study. suddenly i felt so discipline. woke up early to study, not touching tv and comp for more than one hr everyday... i am really surprised.. haha.. well, maybe it is easy for some of you out there but i am just so surprised that i did it.. lolz...

and M sms yesterday. but i didn't reply him. i am studying and kind of being irritated as i was trying to get my econs stuff into my head.. ya i know i am being unfair to him as he didn't know what am i doing at that time. haizz.. and it was soooo shitty that holidays has come.. he is going to ask me out and i am sure about that.. how?? haizz... i really don't know...

i am going to sleep and sleep and sleep.... play and play and play... lolz... sound like a pig?? haha.. i am totally exhausted.. clearing of notes can wait... haha..
♥9:12 PM..Love
haizz.. i am down with flu again.. and i am going to flunk my OB paper. when i got the paper, i was like.. what heck? i could not answer even the mcqs... jialat. i don't know whether is it i mind block, or the paper too difficult to understand. i really don't know how to do.. we had to choose two out of three essays to do. when i looked at the questions, none of them i could do and i just chunk whatever i could remember although i am 100% sure that i will fail this paper. no joke. and i broke down after the paper. don't know why. i know it is just a paper. just burst out in tears. but after awhile, i am alright. maybe i am just too tired. really tired. i miss my beauty sleep... haizz...

and my mum don't understand. i told her i won't do well in this paper, she would say, "aiya, is you didn't study hard lah. blah blah blah..." can't she just say something more encouraging?? so frustrated when i reached home and hearing this. sianzz.. like it is all my fault for not passing the paper. haizz.. i really don't know what to do to make her understand. nvm, better don't try too hard...

anyway, wish all my friends taking exam all the best.. good luck!
♥6:28 PM..Love
haizz.. wanted to study one.. but the terms just can't get into my brain!! all i know about MBS is to memorise and memorise.. nothing but MEMORISING!! all those stupid computer terms are drving crazy!! haizz..

got a few bad news here.. haizz... definitely no As this semester. sianz. of course this is not i wanted. i just had my first paper yesterday and i felt that everything is GONE... study so hard for what? i went there with shivered hands, when i sat down, i realised i left my matrix card in front of the hall and luckily no one took it away.. sianzz.. and after exam, i was abit frustrated with caiyu.. is it because of her that resulted my bad performance? she was late for the exam, and yali and i were waiting for her but decided to went in without her first. and we were like walking fast as we had missed the 10 minutes reading time! haizz.. i still remember mr tan said reading time is very important.. and my mind was blank and had to keep referring to the textbook!! haizz.. and there is william hung in the paper again.. so irritating to see his name in the paper again! i am SO SICK of it!! i think all the papers that have his name, i am going to flunk those papers!! haizz... but after thinking, nah, it was not her fault. it was MY fault. i aimed too high and that resulted my fear. think i am possessed with low internal locus of control. shouldn't have blame others for what am i today. haha.. OB theory... lolz..

haizz.. hope today MBS paper won't be THAT difficult. just a pass for the paper and thats enough to make my day.. lolz.. but the paper is at 2pm!! my nap time.. lolz... ZZzzzZ

and yes.... yesterday newpaper didn't disappoint me. beckham is the headline again.. sianzz.. another came accusing him again!! haiz.. felt so disappointed that beck admitted to his wife.. if he want to admit it, should admit it in the first place! haizz.. and separation for victoria and beck is coming the way and i can imagine the ending with a divorce.. SICK!! enough said.


♥8:16 AM..Love
fed up!! my blogskin is driving me crazy!! haizz.... the pics couldn't loayd, so i change back to the ballet one.. then something went wrong!! SO MANY ADS came popping and popping until everything went HANG!!!!!! shit man.... and the worst is, when i type my blog address in the address box, it turned to a search webby!! argh... i got a shocked sia.. don't know is my blogger prob or is my comp... sianzz.. now i changed to this.. after SO MANY search for a nice skin!! argh.. fed up fed up!!

and what drives me mad is that Diana Degarmo!! what the f! when JPL was out, she was like hopping and jumping to her seat!!! kena sai! it is ok to be happy and relieved, but pls lor, think of others' feelings lor! kaozz... she will be out real ssoon, very soon. she got my blessing that she will be out and she WILL NOT be in TOP 5!! see her face i can vomit!!! when JPL was singing for the last time, she was grinning to herself and her face got this 'obigood JPL' face!! really felt like slapping her!! argh.. bitch....
♥11:49 PM..Love
*yawn* i am SO tired... haizz... anyway, i am here to talk about american idol. for those who don't wanna read about it, can skip my blog today.. haha...

i don't find fantasia singing nice. she was sitting there and she sounded awful. min thinks that she sang well.. but too bad, she tried too hard to please me. lolz. she was sitting in a position so awkward! i don't like to sing when we had to sway, sit , snapping our fingers or whatever kind of movements! i felt that these will definitely affects your pitching although adding movements is quite interesting.

and diana. she sounded nice in mp3 and it sounded like celine dion. but i listened it on tv, omg. she tried too hard, really. her sound don't blend with the background music and 'my heart will go on' is too common. and simon was saying 'your words were sinking' and i burst into laughter! haha...

just realised i sounded so mean and negative.. lolz... ok, JPL's song was nice. i was somehow shocked when the music started. haha. but he forgot some words and he scrambled through..

haizz.. beck was in news these few days. it hurts to see him in the headlines of the newpaper, straits times and whatever paper. after these few days, i decided to blog about this.

why was he in the headlines?? just because he was an idol? famous? it was so unfair to him. that b*** who came out and pointed her finger at her can jolly well go and f*** off! she just needed money to live as she was BANKRUPT!! shit her lah.. haizz.. but IF this affair is real, he will have disappoint me and he has NO taste.. haizz.. i always feel that he is devoted to his wife, brooklyn and romeo...

off for breakfast... lolz.. so happy to be alone at home... dah...


♥8:35 AM..Love
haizz.. now in school library.. waiting for my MBS revision lecture to start.. falling asleep... ZZzzzZ.. lolz.. watched american idol audition yesterday.. so humiliating! bth.. i don't think i ever will join this type of contest.. lolz.. especially the ger who went screaming at the top of her voice. haha.. and yali an i was liked demostrating when we were going for breakfast! lolz.. erm.. ok lah.. basically it was me who was demostrating lah.. lolz... i wonder how leah can get into the top 12... so the nan ting!! lolz... nvm, tonight american idol will be better.. lolz.. fantasia please get out from there.. lolz...

haizz.. got lesson until 6pm.. so sianzz.. but my tutor yesterday said that she will dismiss us early today.. yeah!!! finally i completed my cds.. cheers!! hehe... FINALLY k... today it will be the last lesson.. i don't know whether i should be sad or happy.. lolz... anyway, exchanged hp number with wan xin, a girl in my cds class.. so glad to know her! maybe she is the only one that i can click in the class? maybe..

and haizz.. quite disappointed in my course work grades.. sianzz... all get Bs and Cs... only stats get A which i think is by luck one.. and i don't know my econs result.. sianzz.. but definitely not an A.. wonder how he gives us participation marks when every tutorial is only him participating!! lolz... nvm.. don't think i will do well this sem... try my best lor.. lolz.. tomorrow not going to school.. going to study at home.. haizz... cos i already attended the revision lecture on mon le.. lalala... great... at least i didn't miss anything except mbs tutorial.. goodbye mr teo!! won't get to see you the last time.. sob sob.. haha.. i am getting crazy.. NVM.... lolz... *grinz*
♥11:38 AM..Love
went to school for just one hr of lesson!! haha.. during my cds tutorial, i was smsing caiyu whether she got help me photocopy the accounts past year paper, then turned out that she did not photocopy for me, then i don't go liao, cos the lect is going through the paper lor.. then tutorial i also didn't go.. cos i don't know what my econs tutor is talking about.. lolz.. always like that de.. if i really wanna go, it is just becos i want to know my course work grade!! lolz.. sometimes, it is good not to absent ourselves too often as we could get away two times without MCs... lolz.. this is called 'clear leaves'... lolz... haha.. then i met zhen to give her the letter, then who knows, we went to lib to wait for zell finished doing his project stuff, then i wrote abit of the letter then asked zell some business stats stuff.. just realized that zhen is learning CMaths is something like my stats..

then after that, actually intend to go home de.. but who knows again, we went TM for lunch.. lolz.. then, i brought two pairs of earrings!! haizz.. earrings again.. sianzz.. lolz... the first one is because of the person! i haven't decided whether to buy or not, the person just like took it from my hand and go and packed it up!! then i had to buy lor.. sianzz.. the second one is nice.. very unique! lolz.. i must stop myself from buying!! lolz.. anyway, i am going to start saving up le.. really broke liao.. haizz... anyway, took a neocard with zhen.. that is my new hair cut.. quite long hor? haha.. very messy lah.. haizz..



then after that, we went starbucks, sit down chat chat, but i didn't drink wor.. i see them drink.. lolz.. then after that, took 69 home again as they two are going back to school for lesson so i accompany them.. hehe.. actually hor.. i quite BRIGHT lor.. hehe... LIGHTBULB.. hehe.. paiseh lah, zhen and zell... lolz..

anyway, going off to study AGAIN... sianz... exams coming le... sob sob.. haizz...
♥6:22 PM..Love
don't know what's wrong with my tag board again.. can't seems to tag in there.. sianzz.. aanyway, nothing to tok about these few days.. don't feel like going msn.. lolz... dun miss mi if you all don't see me there k.. lolz.. jk..
♥8:31 AM..Love
just came home from library. finally finished studying econs liao.. yeah!! but sure forget before econs exam de.. sianzz.. and next week is my exam liao.. so wont be blogging so frequently le.. i am going to do my best for the exam.. although i don't really know what i had learnt.. lolz.. nvm...
♥9:36 PM..Love
watching NKF show... i was touched by sharon au performance. i was nervous and it was painful to see her like that. haiz.. and when i saw a chair behind her, i was kinda relieved. but when they said it was a chair made of blades, i was stunned. never see something like that before. and nevermind, after that, there was this clip on this family. nearly cried, just got tears in my eyes. haiz. so sad for the family. but it was like.. only this family made me very sad. maybe it was somehow related to me, in the sense that, only my mum supports the family. haizz.. life is like that, there are ups and downs... but haha.. i am alright... dah...
♥9:44 PM..Love
my mum cooked mee siam today and i had two bowls!! lolz.. jialat.. it is deliccious!! lolz.. anyway, took an ice cream test just now and what is said was quite true.. it was an email sent by shan.. click the link to take the test.. i think only the part i like to work is not true.. lolz.. here is my result...

You sincerely believe that everything around you is beautiful, even though other people may not notice. You are a determined person and set high goals for your life.

You are always wilful and most of the time, you are a stubborn person. But you love to work and are quite honest, which makes you good to get along with as a friend or lover.

You are tough, hard-working and responsible. When you are assigned to do something, you will do your best no matter how difficult the job at hand might be.

You are soft-minded. You find it's too hard to say "No" to others, especially when you are pushed. Quite often, you are taken advantage of because of your soft-minded nature.

haha.. so TRUE... and my brother's gf is coming to my house! yeah! hehe.. at least got someone to talk to me.. lolz... but she is going to study for her exam. i think i am going to disturb her! heheehe...

and today is kevin's bday.. HaPpI bDaE kEvIn!! =)
♥11:36 AM..Love
went for the concert... it was nice. and shan was asking me about my thoughts. i also don't know how to answer her directly.so here am i blogging about my thoughts... yeah.. agreed with shan, i felt so old. old in the sense that, when you see the people you know, you will feel like got age gap. then like i don't know most of the pupils there le.. haizz.. and the finale i was somehow touched by it. damai don't seems to be like damai anymore. i mean from the concert, it didn't look like it was damai secondary school.. argh.. what am i talking about.. nvm.

saw gary lin, my last sem econs tutor and also my favourite tutor at the MRT station.. *grinz* haiz.. everytime sees him, i will start wishing that if he will always be my econs teacher and not the present one. haiz.. he is approachable and not like my present tutor. sianzz..

anyway, after watching the concert, i felt that choir was alright for the last two songs. but the first song, breathe, went out of pitch.. the whole song was flat. quite obvious.. or maybe i was immune to listening those stuff? i don't know. can say that those who have music background should know what am i talking about. the candle on the water was in pitch, but they couldn't come in at one part. but overall, well done choir. although i was abit disappointed but i felt that they really grown and mature a lot. when i was in damai choir, i would not say that i sing well. i also got the tendency to depend on my seniors. and everytime i would be able to scam through and needless to say that my juniors also got the tendency to depend on me when i was their senior. but today, i can see that they are able to stand on their own, their attitude was right and more discipline. felt touched when they walked out from the auditorium, can see from their faces, also abit disappointed, they were not in a mood to laugh or anything. maybe they were too tired? i don't know. but i guess, they know that they can do better. but nvm choir, u all have already done a great job. really.. *clapped*

and there was so many crockroaches and lizards in the school and outside the school! scary... lolz.. i was like screaming there lor! haha... and after the concert, we walked around the school.. and min was the tour guide. lolz.. the school environment is nice. also got a lot of kois like my school. the night view was nice. everyone always praise nyp's night view is very romantic and nice. finally got the taste of it. min is still the same old him even though didn't see him for like so long.. lolz.. suaning people all the way and singing songs. can say his voice improve a lot from the last time i listen to him. i mean not on phone, but real life. his voice has grown richer and soild. jialat, i think if he sees this, he will be sooo happy.. lolz... but really, although he is not in choir for all his lifeand did not have professional guidance, but if he is in TP, i sure ask him to join choir.. lolz. haizz.. felt guilty for not singing half as good as him. i am in choir for so many years! haiz.. don't know why like that.. and my singing has been deterioting since choir stand down and after i lost my voice. i just can't get my voice back... haizz.. sad ah... wanna try hard, but.. haizz.. my instrument(voice) is not working. like what albert always tells us, "mr strepsil could not see the note/world." don't when can i improve my voice.. sianzz...




♥12:13 AM..Love
*yawn* i am sooo tired. yesterday watched wrestle mania until so late and today had to wake up sso early for mbs make up lesson! and the class was like so pathetic as only 8 to 9 people turned up for the tutorial!! haha... well done people.. lolz..

and yes.. the rock lost the match yesterday. sianzz.. but expected le. it was a handicapped match. 3 vs 2. it was so unfair. haiz.. but nevermind. he put up a great fight. and that john cena defeated big show by cheating. lolz. nevermind, since big show has been winning all this while.. lolz. don't think you all understand what i am talking. nevermind.

ok, after going for the mbs, caiyu, yali and i went to tm and ate pizza hut. we couldn't finish the food and asked caiyu to takeaway the pizza. then we ad a jar of pepsi and we played a game. ok, not really a game but anyway, i won. they had to finish each a glass of pepsi.. lolz. yeah! haha.. and then yali mixed my leftover salad with the tomato sauce for breadsticks, tartar sauce, cream of chicken(soup), pepsi and don't what lah, all those that are edible. lolz. then we challenged each other to taste it. lolz. and we really tasted k! and i will NEVER try it again! the taste was extremely awful!! bth.. i don't know how to describe it. maybe if you all wanna try can ask me to help u all mix it. lolz.

and i was surprised that caiyu got soooo many membership cards!! lolz. really A LOT!!! bth. one whole stack k... at first i thought is all phonecards lor but when i browsed through, bth... lolz. she even got spotlight membership! wanko, metro, chicky meal, hang ten, TS, poh kim,..... blah blah.. i just named afew of them.. lolz.. i know who to go to if i wanna discount for EVERYTHING... lolz.

then me and yali went bedok walk walk. the weather can kill! lolz. so hot sia! so many things yali wanna buy, but in the end, brought one shower cap... lolz.. but alright, she looking for it for weeks liao. and her mood is better. glad that she can handle it. she has always been the strongest among us. well done yali... lolz..

going for the damai anniversary concert later.. i can't wait to see it! faster faster.... hope that choir did not disappoint me... and i am going to kill min if he going to be late.. lolz... dah..
♥4:43 PM..Love
just changed my blogskin. nice? i changed it while waiting for my cds. one and a half hour! not bad lah.. getting the hang of it.

about yesterday american idol. fantasis sucks man! she was the first to sing yesterday and i was totally pissed by her performance. she sounded super fake!! buai tahan. and jon peter lewis sang rocket man. it was nice and i agreed with the judges. he don't seems to be in his self for the past few performances. not like him when he was on stage for the first time, maybe it was stress. and camile's song was nice but she wasn't performing well for that song, Goodbye Yellow Brick Road. and i know the result of the top 9. camile was kicked out. can anyone imagine that jasmine was in the bottom three?? couldn't believing it man... nevermind. i wanted jennifer to be kicked out, but surprise, surprise. she sang well, the song the circle of life. i shall share with you all the lyrics of the song.

The Circle Of Life
by Whitney Houston

From the day we arrive on the planet
And blinking, step into the sun
There's more to see than can ever be seen
More to do than can ever be done
There's far too much to take in here
More to find than can ever be found
But the sun rolling high
Through the sapphire sky
Keeps the great and small on the endless round

It's the circle of life
And it moves us all
Through despair and hope
Through faith and love
Till we find our place
On the path unwinding
In the circle
The circle of life

It's the circle of life
And it moves us all
Through despair and hope
Through faith and love
Till we find our place
On the path unwinding
In the circle
The circle of life

another song. sang by camile. nice.
Goodbye Yellow Brick Road

When are you gonna come down
When are you going to land
I should have stayed on the farm
I should have listened to my old man

You know you can't hold me forever
I didn't sign up with you
I'm not a present for your friends to open
This boy's too young to be singing the blues

So goodbye yellow brick road
Where the dogs of society howl
You can't plant me in your penthouse
I'm going back to my plough

Back to the howling old owl in the woods
Hunting the horny back toad
Oh I've finally decided my future lies
Beyond the yellow brick road

What do you think you'll do then
I bet that'll shoot down your plane
It'll take you a couple of vodka and tonics
To set you on your feet again

Maybe you'll get a replacement
There's plenty like me to be found
Mongrels who ain't got a penny
Sniffing for tidbits like you on the ground


♥8:27 PM..Love
yeah!! i am back home.. lolz.. but abit sianz lah.. feel like changing my blogskin again.. hehe.. but still deciding lah.. as i like this blog skin also.. lolz.. sch has been great since all the projects are gone.. but really must brush up my work le... exam coming in one to two weeks time!! *stress* anyway, today got american idol!! must watch!! jennifer please go out.. lolz.. and the rock had a new movie!! hehe... i wanna see... he is soo cool!! lolz... and wrestlemania on ch 5 this good friday!! yeah! i wanna watch.. but i knew that the rock lost to revolution.. haizz.. but nvm! haha.. okok.. i know i sounded abit crazzy... haha.. dah..
♥5:41 PM..Love
this is the second entry today. i don't know why, but i just want to share this real life story with you all.

i have seen my friend living so miserably these few days. her friend passed away. if it happens to me, at this point of time, at this age, i will not know how to handle it, or rather, i don't know how to react to it. when i see my friend these two days, i really don't know how to help her. people told me that, don't console her, she will feel even worse. is it true? it is my first time, withnessing this. i mean, not the fact that i don't know her friend, but somehow when i see how she react and when i heard the news, i felt sad and shocked. and it pains me to see her like that. i nearly broke down with her.

i don't know why, even when my grandfather passed away, i don't feel this way. i don't feel like crying. this is so different. i am not scare of dying. i know the feeling of dying is not good as i went through it before. but what i am afraid and what i am scared of, is to see my close ones passed away. i just hope that everyone will die later than me. although i know how selfish is my thinking. everyone wishes that.

when i see her, i really don't know how to talk to her. i know whatever i say, she won't listen. we are just seeing it and judging it by how we should handle the situation. like this sentence, 'don't think so much'. this is what outsiders will normally say. if i am in her shoes, i will not listen to these shit. as no one feels like how i will. it just hurts. but outsiders really can do nothing except consoling. it all depends on time. like what everyone said: time will heal everything.

after this incident, i really know how it feels like to lose someone, it is terrible. i will cherish those around me. i will forgive and forget. maybe i shall start treating M better.

to my friend who is suffering now: i know maybe one day you will read this, i seriously hope that u will get over it soon and get on with life. although you may think that this is what an outsider will say. but as a friend, i can feel your pain. i will always be there for you. be strong. i know it takes time.
♥11:44 PM..Love
death cuming.. and again, i felt breatheless.. just had my medicine just now.. dunno when will there be another major attack..
♥8:20 PM..Love
don't know what to blog.. not in a mood to blog.. just has a message for everyone: cherish those around u, treat them nicer...
♥7:13 PM..Love
have been slacking the whole day.. shit man. i don't know why. just don't feel like touching any tutorials. and that caiyu called me that our group is going to present tutorial tomorrow. heck. i am not in a mood to do my tutorials this week.

and i still find that i look better with my hair tied up. think i am not going to change my hair style anymore. just going to trim and trim and not cut it short anymore. maybe it is because i look neater with my hair tie? i don't know. it just wasn't me to let down my hair.. oh god.. pls let my hair grow faster.... haiz.
♥8:52 PM..Love
yesterday i nearly died of asthma.. i am serious. the first time i could not stop it by ointment, medicine and anything... i just could not breathe... i have to asked my mum to accompany me to the clinic downstairs and i was immediately given the oxgen tank for ten minutes. and it stop the sound of my breathing but i was still panting like a dog.. haizz.. and i can see that my mum was worried. extremely worried. stupid asthma. come so sudden.. haizz.. i promise i will not eat junk food again.. no tibits until i am feeling better... and NO BANANAS!! all that banana's fault.. lolz.. but nvm.. i got a taste of death. the feeling is not good.

went to the NE forum this morning.. the topic was great. it was about SAF and those military stuff. finally, the third time and the last time i attended the NE forum did not disappoint me. the best forum that i ever went to. well done.

the skit and the video were interesting. i learnt something from the forum, leg: why men need to go for NS, what they did on tekong, what have they learnt in there and many many more. it was said that they work for 24hrs and 7 days.. really? but someone voice out during the Q n A session. if they really work for 24hrs and 7 days, why would the three robbers get to tekong?? and the reply was, they work for 24/7 to keep alert of the terrorists. somehow i was pissed by the answer. isn't robbers part of their job?? but nvm. i knew they are not suppose to tell us anything. they can't say the truth in the public.

and i was wondering, when those uncles went for reservice, what is the use of it? they can no longer run as fast as they could like when they are 18 yrs old.they will have bellies. haha... true rite?? and sure there are discrimination when training in tekong de rite?? those ministers' sons will be taken care of. and treated real good.

anyway, after that went to bugis to cut my hair. chapter 2. not bad lah.. i like the hairstylist. at least i found someone that did not disappoint me. she is the one.. lolz... i think i will go back to her if i want to cut my hair again. and oh yah, saw swee choo's dad. he was fierce. and normally i will greet my friends' parents if i see them. but don't know why. i did not greet him when i saw him. kinda scare of him...

and we went walk walk and eat teppanyaki again.. haha.. yali say it was nice. but the standards had dropped. she also agreed with me.. i prefer TM de.. at least the cook there is more professional. lolz.. and surprise surprise... yali wore skirt today! first time since i know her... haha...

and we went to watch the prince and me. the show was not bad. very sweet, romantic, and.. whatever u can use to describe love stories that have 'happily ever after'. haha... and yali and i miss the last part of the movie.. and she nearly killed me because of the show cos is my fault lah.. i was talking to her about something else.. lolz.. paiseh lah yali..
♥7:16 PM..Love
i gt 13/15 for my access test.. the report is totally wrong.. lolz.. but ok.. well done.. at least i managed to scam through it... lolz... i know nothing about access de lor.. haha... and tutor postpone the make up class again!! haizz.. sianz sia.. tomorrow have to go for the NE forum again.. hope that there will not be any bloody scenes and of course, hope the topic will not be too boring!! the tutor don't want to dismiss us.. say other classes haven't finish the test and blah blah blah.. sianzzz.... i want to leave this place!! lolz
♥2:18 PM..Love
argh........ the stupid online access test... i can't finish it!!! argh...... sianz half liao.. now teacher marking.. don't know how much i score.. and we are allow to surf net and do our own stuff. haizz.. how ah.. i know i won't fail the test. but at least if i score high, it can at least help me to push up my CA marks.. haizz... sianzz... but i doubt i will do well.
♥2:14 PM..Love
watched finished american idol.... and Amy is OUT!!! haha.. i am sooo happi.. i don't know.. but i don't really like her.. and i am surprise that layota is in bottom 3.. haizz..... are the judges sleeping or wat?? i think the next one will be out is jennifer.. john stevens also possible..
♥10:58 PM..Love
waiting for my cds class again.. sianz.. and i skip mbs lecture.. surprise? haha... the lecturer is so boring de.. and everyone don't like him... it has been a long time since i skip lectures le.. lolz.. but anyway, i don't like mbs... go or didn't go will not make a very big impact in my knowledge for mbs.. lolz..

gotta sleep early these few days.. getting more and more lethargic... haizz.. no more energy to study anymore.. used up in doing projects liao.. haha.. lame excuses? haha.. no lah.. really lor.. tired of rushing here and there... life has been stressful.. but i must hang on there... not going to think of guys anymore.. no promises but i will try.. just wanna make it to next year...

study study hard hard.. haha.. but start next week or so lah.. lolz.
♥1:52 PM..Love